BC: It's the little things that make life beautiful.
FC: Sometimes all you need if for someone to "Just Listen" | My Life As Annabel
1: To dedicate these journal entries to my sisters. Different in every way from each other, yet some how we click like magnets.
2: I feel like a complete loser. Forced to sit next to the weird boy i glance across the room. I see one of my old best friends give me the dirtiest look I've ever recived, two seats over, my other best friends from child hood is acting as i don't even exsist. This day is horrible. I get sick from the awkward chills i keep getting i throw up in the trashcan. Finally the school day is over, but wait NOO my life can never be simple, my mom calls to tell me i have a go see. Can i ever get a break ? "A perfect loser" -p,30 | Entry 1
4: "Life is like a roller coaster, live it, be happy, enjoy life. Avril Lavigne | Words can’t describe how excited I am for my sisters. They moved to New York to help them out with their modeling. "Kirsten has always been the athletic shaped one, getting simple commercials, while Whitney was tall and slender got the high-fashion jobs." I hope their alright. Kirsten called to say that Whitney is losing weight rapidly; Mom thinks it’s because of the competition in New York. I hope it is nothing more. | Entry 2
5: When I saw Whitney get off that plane I knew something was wrong. She’s so skinny. My mom is a fool. How can she act like there’s nothing wrong with her? She’s skin and bones! I'm used to school life giving me heart aches. Why do I have to deal with this at home? Whitney please be okay. Maybe Mom is right. Maybe you're just going this to help out with jobs. But Kirsten says it’s real serious. Oh my God how much can this family or I take? | Entry 3
6: "Say whats real." Drake | I dont deserve this, why are girls so mean. School is hell. Girls are talking about the girl with twig sister. I wanted my modeling to be a help me and boost my confidence. But right now seeing why its doing to Whitney, i never want to model again. "Mom please for once, just listen" p.60 | Entry 3 | Entry 4
7: I'm so excited to see Whittney, I know in my heart shes better. I don't even have to see her in person. Shes healthy now. i just know it! I cant wait to see her tomorrow ! | "No one cal kill your happy thoughts" P,79 | Entry 5
8: Oh my God. She walked down from the plane and i just about wanted to faint. Shes so Skinny. Way skinnier than before. Shes wearing a black sweatshirt 10 sizes to big and her pants were so baggy. I gave that out fit to her last year when i out grew it. She used to fit it perfectly. My sister, my beautiful sister. What is she doing to her self! I blame my mom for being so hardheaded. I'm sorry Kirsten We should have listened. I feel so stupid. I think everyone notices, but no ones saying anything. | "Everything i tried to teach em their gonna see it in time" -Nicki Minaj | Entry 6
9: "Eat, please eat." I scream in a prayer in my head. Please. Eat. I watch her stare down at her food, looking at mom best chicken parm like it was a plate of vomit. Shes sick. And now thats shes nothing but skin and bones my mother finally says something. "Eat sweetie, please" She takes monstrous bites & finishes it with in , seconds, gets up, pushes in her chair in a slam and runs upstairs. Everyone looks relived, but i'm sure were all thinking the same thing. "So you got what we wanted. But is it what you really wanted?" p97 | Entry 7
10: I knew something was wrong. My house looked so different. The way i feel as i walked down my hallway was different. It all was very disturbing. But,never, ever, would i have thought to see my sisters skeleton like body sprawled out on the ground. Her skin was translucent, all of her veins were visible along with every bone. I was horrified. I looked over to the toilette, then it finally clicked. I screamed for my dad. She rushed her to the ER leaving me in the house. Word got back to me later that day, she away barely alive, doctors say she's got some one looking out for her, i smile when Grandmas face dances in my head. But, they say she;s very sick and had to so to rehab. I know its for the better and i cant wait for her to come home. | "Victory is right around the conner. Don't give up" -Nicki Minaj | Entry 8
11: Shes home now, i guess that could be called a victory on its own. But shes acts as if shes angry at the world. But I'd rather her be angry than dead... I was eating dinner with my family and Kirsten told us that shes quitting modeling and going back to school. The whole table laughs, even Whittney who hasnt spoken to Kirsten since the whole ordeal. Everyone knows Kirsten is not a school person, she has always been more of a social butterfly. But my mom and Dad support her. That gives me hope that i can tell my mom that i dont want to modeling anymore. But helping us with go sees is whats helping her keep busy ans stop thinking about Grandmas death.. Man, just when i thought i was room to breath life suffocates me again. There goes that... | Entry 9
12: In the end i cant say life is a fairytale, but it is better. MY sisters healthy, i found a REAL friends and a boyfriend who cares and likes me for who i am. My famiLIES not perfect. But we are strong and can over come any problems throw at us. THE END | "You don't get to see it coming, You just get to see it go." -Drake | Entry 10
17: "Pink isn't just a color, it's an attitude"
23: Say Cheese!