S: The Great Sparkly Moon Book year three without my Dragon
BC: Bunny has hope for life, the everlasting life her Dragon is living up there, in the sky, where the moon and the stars are; and also where the sun is. year 4 is starting. and more moon photos to come.
FC: The Great Sparkly Moon Book year three without my Dragon *triple sigh*
1: Bunny still has a hard time sleeping sometimes. and sometimes, all she wants to do is sleep, "sleep perchance to dream....." of her Dragon and another time when she was happy.
2: she has her little projects that she works on, she has her job at Build-A-Bear, and she has what she calls her Dragon Things like this map......... | the map shows all the places he has traveled to in his work at a Marine and a Patriot. Bunny calls it her Captain America Map and her Dragon helped her with it.
3: Bunny doesn't have a lot of things going for her anymore but she does have her moon, her lovely moon-y moon. she still communes with the full moon. this is the full moon of February 2011, the start of year 3 without him.
4: the supermoon of March 19, 2011. Bunny stood outside alone and mourned her Dragon under the largest moon she'd ever seen.
5: April 17, 2011 always beautiful. always different. Bunny misses him. she works. she smiles. she laughs. but a part of her is missing. love. joy. dreams.
6: Bunny drives herself to work, but she thinks of him, and her moon. she watches for it. she takes it's picture even when it isn't full like down there. May 11th, and not yet full but Bunny is outside standing vigil........waiting, watching, and pining.
7: and then it returns for her. May 15, 2011. Dragon's full moon. did she see him that night? Bunny never tells a soul.
8: June 14, 2011, the Heavens put on quite a show for Bunny and her camera. clouds moving all around the moon, past it, covering it, then suddenly revealing it's haunting beauty. teasing her like life has always done. here is something perfect, something so wonderful. here is a glimpse but it is so far away, so ephemeral, so not for you.
9: then, close to midnight that amazing 14th of June, the clouds parted and allowed Bunny a photo of her full moon. she let out a sigh of relief, of bittersweet melancholy. he is up there in Heaven. and she is still down here. still has things to do, she guesses.
10: July 13, 2011. Bunny worked through the 4th holiday, and never thought about lifting her fuzzy little nose off that grindstone, but ahhh, the night of the 13th, Bunny was outside with her camera and her visions of her Dragon.
11: August 11th, 2011, what would have been Bunny and Dragon's 9th wedding anniversary. Bunny took the photos and then she stood there staring up, and she wept.
12: August finally passed. Bunny endured her wedding anniversary and his birthday, and September came, with thoughts of Fall, and Sept. 11. the two sides of Bunny, day with smiles, night with sighs.
13: cloudy, drizzly, full moon of October 13, 2011. Bunny's little tears went unnoticed by the moon.
15: this spread is the full moon of November 10, 2011. the holidays are coming. Bunny doesn't care. it means work and going back to a place with no Dragon. Bunny hugs her puppies a lot when she gets back home.
16: December 10th, 2011 Full Moon. Bunny stands alone under the cold, dark night sky and stares t the moon trying to see if her Dragon is there.
21: the rain moved in for the new year, 2 012. Bunny mourned the loss of the full moon on the 9th. she found her moon again when the clouds moved out and gave her a morning chance to take the previous 3 photos of her moon. Jan. 12.
22: and finally the month of February arrives. the month of love and hearts. Valentine's. the month of his death. the anniversary of this life without his life in it. the marking of time, the awful passing of time of how long i have been alone, without him to talk to, to hold, to listen to, to smile at.
23: i am always out there waiting. i know the time of moonrise each month. this February of 2012, it is a full moon on the night before the anniversary of his death.
24: it came slowly up over the trees. it shone it's lonely light down on me. i spoke to him. i told him of my day. i told him my worries, my fears. i told him i think of him on two occasions . . .
26: it's Bunny's crying time. her Dragon Days are here.
27: and then she'll turn in and dream of her Dragon and of living beside the ocean. she'll dream that everything will be alright.