S: Senior year
1: To Grace, live life to the fullest.
2: I was at camp when i got a call from scarlet. "Its Micheal"(scarlet 3). Micheal is scarlets boyfriend. she called to tell me that he had died in a motorcycle accident. So i called my mother to come and get me And to take me to scarlet. | Journal 1
3: Today was Michaels funeral. All of his previous girlfriends were there balling their eyes out. scarlet did not shed a tear. We went through the ceremony holding each others hands. When it was done we walked outside the church. I told scarlet it would be o.k. "I know, I know"(scarlet 38). Then she looked up into the sky and it started to rain. | Journal 2
4: Today scarlet and i had work at the supermarket. While i was weighing produce for a woman she asked me to meet her in the bathroom when i was done. When i went in she pulled out a little white stick that had a circle on it and in that circle was a plus sign. How could scarlet be pregnant. "I have been sick every morning for the past three weeks"(scarlet 96). I could not believe it. | Journal 3
5: Today scarlet went to get her abortion. later that day at school, i got called to the office. The lady at the desk said "its your mother"(107). It was really scarlet calling me to come and get her. So me and Macon (my boyfriend) left the school grounds to go and get her. We took scarlet home. When i got home i got yelled at by my mother for "skipping school". I wanted to tell her about scarlet but i couldn't. So i got grounded. | Journal 4
6: Today i got un-grounded. So to celebrate i told my mom that i was going over to scarlets later. When i am really just going walk to her house. Say hi and walk out her back door. To the road behind her house to meet Macon. I have no idea where he is going to take me.
7: We went to his penthouse. I waited in his room while he went to get me a drink. I saw a photo of me from the grand canyon with my mother. But she was torn out of the picture. When he came back i asked him where he go the picture from. He said "i took it from scarlet". | Journal 5
8: Grandma Haley fell. Shes fine but in a nursing home. My mother flew to see her before i did. So we stayed there for thanksgiving. When we got back i continued dating Macon although my mother said " your not allowed to see him any more"(169) . | Journal 6
9: Christmas has come and gone in a blink of an eye. Now its new years. Last night i went to a party with Macon. There was lots of drinking and smoking. He took me to a bedroom, inside was Ronnie(the owner) on the bed with Jinny Tabbor on the floor. We started smoking. Macon and Ronnie left the room, which left me and Ginny. We sat there on the bed drinking and talking. Long after that Macon and Ronny came back. Ronnie left with Ginny, which left me and Macon alone. I led him on but then i got up ran out of the house as everyone was screaming "10,9,8"(230). Then i threw up when they got to one. I sat there crying. The first part of the ride home we didn't talk. But once we did we started arguing. He got mad . All i can remember is me yelling at him to stop. Then a big flash of light. | Journal 7
10: I woke up and Macon wasn't there. All i wanted was for him to be there. I fell back asleep. I woke up and my mother was screaming at me "Did he do this to you"( 238). My dad kept yelling at her to stop. She did eventually after i closed my eyes. | Journal 8
11: I'm home now. Each night Macon would go to our usual meeting place. I didn't come out of my room. Until one night i heard a voice outside my window" Haley, come out i need to talk to you"(macon241). I wasn't going to go out but eventually i did. I told him off. When i came back inside my mother was there yelling at me. She thought i went back to him when i didn't. I hate it when she doesn't let me speak. She always assumes shes right. | Journal 9
12: Today was prom. I wore a dress with a tag that drove me insane. Scarlet had a specially made dress by Cameron's( her date) mother. She looked beautiful. My date was Noah, he showed up drunk. When we got there Noah fell and ripped my dress. So i went inside without him. I went to the bathroom and one of my friends from school fixed my dress. Shortly after Ginny Tabor ran in screaming" Haley hurry, Scarlets having her baby"(264). | Journal 10
13: I was scared but not as much as scarlet. Cameron passed out on the dance floor. Scarlet didn't want a ambulance, so Macon drove us to the hospital. Scarlet had a baby girl. As i went out to to tell the news, i saw my whole senior class waiting to hear the news. Scarlet named her daughter Grace Haley Thomas. Haley because of me. | Journal 11
14: "Hunger, love, pain, fear are some of those inner forces which rule the individual's instinct for self preservation"-Albert Einstiein
15: "Live Well, Laugh Often, Love Much" | "To survive it is often necessary to fight and to fight you have to dirty yourself "- George Orwell