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FC: The Collections of | Marissa Anne ma
1: Mom, this is the updated version of my writings since the last one I gave you I was like 10. This is dedicated to you:) I love you & thankyou for everything you've ever sacrificed for me.
2: Don't tell me again | This song was written about you. Since it was written I've learned a lot. I've learned you're my mom...you're always gonna have a say in what I do. You gave birth to me and your opinion matters most to me though I don't always show it. Anyways..this song still has a ring of truth too it..I am going to do what I want to do, but I'm still going to listen to what you have to say. Love you momma.
3: We don't always get along with you telling me I'm wrong you call me hard headed but I come it naturally You can't make me see what you want me too I'm gonna do what I want to do. You can't tell me no I've got to do this on my own Chorus: Don't tell me again what you thinks best for me try to shove your opinion down my throat, I've got to hit the road I can't take it no more, I've got to be free Free to do what I thinks best for me you've done all you can, it's time to make my mistakes let me go, I've got to learn the hard way]]] 18 years of laying down the law tryna fix my every flaw it's time to leave the nest follow my dreams do what i thinks best You've done your job now sit back and watch me shine. Chorus: Don't tell me again what you thinks best for me try to shove your opinion down my throat, I've got to hit the road I can't take it no more, I've got to be free Free to do what i thinks best for me You've done all you can, it's time to make my mistakes. let me go, I've got to learn the hard way]] You're the one who always tells me not to take the easy way out soo why, would I start now.
4: Wildest Dreams | This song was written to prove to myself I wouldn't give up. Not just on the obvious subject of the song but on everything. Especially myself. This is called wildest dreams and the song hints that they don't come true, but the underlying message of the song is supposed to portray that they do.
5: I know that life isn't always gonna go the way I want it to and I'm aware there is a good possibility that I'm not always going to have you there, but can I not hope for the best, can I not believe we'll make it before all the rest I don't want to just give up cause then I'll have no reason to wake up in the morningg Chorus: I'm not gonna give up on me, I'm not gonna quit when bad days are the only ones I see sure I'm gonna cry, but it doesn't mean I'm not strong, I'm just letting loose everything that's going wrong Tomorrow i'll still smile, even if I don't mean it for awhile}} I hope you can give me another chance I hope when this is all over you can just let go and we can dance, dance all night not saying a single word and with that it may be enough to heal this hurt, and tomorrow we can pick up right where we left off, i'm not stupid just a dreamer and that will only happen in my wildest dreams. Chorus:I'm not gonna give up on me, I'm not gonna quit when bad days are the only ones I see. Sure I'm gonna cry but it doesn't mean I'm not strong, i'm just letting loose everything that's going wrong. Tomorrow i'll still smile even if I don't mean it for awhile.}} I will wait for you even when I say I won't I will cry for you even when I say I'm through..and I will keep hoping for my wildest dreams to come true.
6: Other Girl | Typical, Isn't this what every girl says?
7: You say you're willing to give us another chance yet you expect me to wait for you to finish your little dance I refuse to be the other girl though you continue to try like you're doing everything in your power to watch me cry well you've succeeded so what are you waiting for now I always thought I had you wrapped around my fingers but now it seems to have reversed and that makes it worse if I had been right all along i'd be happy that you're gone but I've learned to be careful what I wish for even though now I wish for you because even if you consent who's to say you'll stop doing what you do I keep running through your head of that I'm sure but I still have no clue what you're hoping for I won't be the other girl I won't do that to someone else she may not care but I do if I have to be the other girl then I give up on you.
8: Expectations | I've always cared about what people think..heck, everyone does. This song was written to show myself sometimes you just can't care..live up to your own expectations not everyone else's. You can please yourself, but it's near impossible to please the whole world.
9: People are gonna tell you what to do in life it's only human nature. You've got to have the courage to take a stand. Especially with the ones you love. Don't let their wish be your command. Don't worry what they're gonna think in the end they'll understand There's nobody who knows whats best for you but you. Chorus: Never live up to anyones expectations but your own your never gonna please the world so do what makes you happy. Live love and laugh, there's no such thing as following the right path.]]] You're gonna have downfalls in life you gotta get bak up shrug it off it's nothing but another day. don't let little things get in your way sure it's okay to feel sorry for yourself from time to time we all do. Just make sure you always believe in yourself. Don't rely on the words of someone else Chorus: never live up to anyones epectations but your own your never gonna please the world so do what makes you happy live love and laugh, theres no such thing as following the right path.]]] Don't let someone else run your life set out to acccomplish all you can do what you want not what others expect
10: Who knew | This I must admit is pretty self explanatory. Almost in story form if you get what I'm saying. This was written in June 2011, 3 days before graduation. This is one of my favorite songs i've ever written, it flows just with the way I was feeling at that moment, sometimes it's hard for my words to describe how I really feel, this isn't the case in "Who Knew"
11: I saw you today, saw you walking with her can you imagine my pain when just this time yesterday I still had hope but you were holding her hand right before my eyes and it was my proof that your version of the truth was really lies I looked down and walked right past what's there to say you chose her not me and I guess i'm gonna have to learn to survive on memories like the ones where you'd hold me and say you'd never leave and then i'll cry because I was stupid enough to believe Chorus: Who knew a broken heart could still beat who knew while your drowning in tears there's still room to breath and did you know I can still fake a smile if I try hard enough it works, every once in a while and whats even more amazing than that is I still can find peace in hearing your name}}} If I had any sense I''d get on with my life ut obviously I don't so I'm not gonna try eople keep asking me how i'm not mad, but i'm to busy trying to concentrate on breathing instead How is it possible to look at her face without seeing mine, am i so easy to erase I'm grasping for reasons but I enclose none, there's nothing to explain why you've done what you've done Maybe you just needed someone to love. Chorus: Who knew a broken heart could still beat who knew while your drowning in tears there's still room to breathe and did you know I can still fake a smile if i try hard enough it works, every once in a while and whats even more amazing than that is I still can find peace in hearing your name]]] How can you go onhow can you breathe how is it when you close your eyes it's not me you see was i really so blind was this visible all along by believing you loved me have you proved me wrong Who knew a broken heart could still beat and even more amazing than that s that through all this pain I can still find peace hearing your name.
12: I Miss You | Grandma was the one person in my life I always listened to. She was the matriarch of our family. She was what held us together. Now I just feel lucky that I got the pleasure to know her and I'm more proud than anything that I can call such an amazing woman my grandma.
13: I love you, be sure to come see me soon. those were the last words I heard from you. 3 years now have passed sometimes I feel your memory slipping away so I close my eyes and hear you say Chorus: you are beautiful in your own way, don't take to heart what others say. Life is a journey and you're gonna go far I love you Rissa, always remember who you are. 9:00 on the dot every sunday, same parking spot it'd be just me & you. Inside the church we'd sing and pray and you'd thankk God for another day. I haven't been since the day you died, your church buddy I will always be. Chorus: You are beautiful in your own way. don't take to heart what others say. Life is a journey & you're gonna go far I love you Rissa, always remember who you are. A memorial to you sits in my room I found some poems you wrote Another gift I acquired from you Well grandma, I'll see you soon & I'll always love you
14: Angels | My Best friends are my angels.
15: You're smiling at her I remember when ?I was the link to your smile it's been awhile since I've heard your voice I haven't quite learned to respect your choice Darlin' I miss you the clouds paint me a picture and in them I see your face only in this dream do I still get to feel your embrace My angels tell me that I should let you go karma's a bitch and eventually you'll reap what you sew they shine the sun trying to warm my face as if a broken heart can so easily be erased winter has befallen and I can relate to the trees bare and cold hiding cause they don't want the world to see I tell my angels not to worry I smile and say I'm fine too bad as my best friends they cant be fooled and are aware I'm lying but i'll continue this show cause I'm really okay and i'll try to forget you promised me forever and forever ended today.
16: Mistake | Mistake | You were right all along momma, don't ever take advantage of a good thing.
17: Everywhere I turn I see your face Even through the pain we don't have a memory I want to erase I guarded myself against you I never wanted love Maybe that's where I went wrong that's right I've blamed myself all along You held me and told me you'd never leave but I pushed away only because I couldn't see Without you I'm incomplete it's a miracle my heart is still able to beat then again it's only shattered, so it may not be a miracle after all it's my own fault as I said I didn't want it so i never braced myself for the fall I miss your smile and the way you made me laugh and how you'd hold me while I'd cry without a single question asked you laughed at stupid things I did and told me it was cute and didn't get offended at things I'd say in a bad mood. You once told me I'd never find anyone who loves me more than you at the time I didn't believe but now I'm scared it's true as hard as I try to keep my eyes dry sometimes it's hard to not cry I did this too myself and I think that's what hurts most Not knowing what I had until it was too late may possibly have been my biggest mistake.
18: This song doesn't have a name so it's simply titled <3....I love you mom, and I'm so glad to be home. I'm sorry for the past year. | <3
19: She's moving through this mess of her life tripping nearly every step the mistakes and regrets cloud her eyes and she's afraid it's too late to turn back now no matter how much she wants to go back she never will, her pride is to strong to admit she's wrong something she knew all along day after day she opens her eyes just wanting to escape again but even if she does it's still only gonna be a dream. Chorus: She messed up bad & she can't go back she hurt the one's she loves and there's no denying that the one thing she tried to avoid all her life is the one thing staring her dead in the eye she just couldn't be what they wanted anymore so instead of trying, like a coward she walked out the door]]] Never believe her when she says shes fine that's a fine sign that she is lying it's no ones fault but her own and maybe that's why she feels so alone all by herself to face her fate that's what it feels like anyway. Chorus: She messed up bad & she can't go back she hurt the one's she loves and there's no denying that the one thing she tried to avoid all her life is the one thing staring her dead in the eye she just couldn't be what they wanted anymore so instead of trying, like a coward she walked out the door]]]]
20: Fear | I'm a worry wart by nature...you and everyone else who knows me well knows that. And not only am I a worry wart but i'm indecisive. Every time I come up with a plan I throw it away and try for something else. Here you go.
21: .I've never been one to be open with myself I've tended to listen to everyone else spending my time trying to fix their problems, forgetting my own.thinking the more they're ignored they'll go away Lord was I wrong I've reached a breaking point where it's gathered inside I can't turn away, no this time I can't hide Chorus: I've reached a breaking point, I'm lost and don't know where to go I'm so focused on the past I can't find the right path, to lead me to my future hopefully to better days]] Decisions are made, plans are set but in the back of my mind there is still that threat that things won't go as planned and I'll be lost again I wish I could be more carefree, more open to be me but I can't change who I am Chorus: I've reached a breaking point I'm lost and don't know where to go I'm so focused on the past I can't find the right path to lead me to my future, hopefully to better days.]]] I'm scared of time, and what it will take from me. losing ones I love is my worst dream awoken in reality. enough of this fear, the world is never gonna be clear It's time I'm on my way to better days
22: I love you | With all my heart
23: Momma, You know what I missed the most while I was gone? I missed dancing around the kitchen cooking and cleaning with you making up silly random songs. I'm so happy to be back home, and starting school, but I wish I could find a stupid job though haha. I loveeee you momma, Merry Christmas <3