FC: By: Susan Campbell Bartoletti
1: I dedicate this book to mein mutti und mein gross eltern for all of the support and for letting me live with you guys.
2: Entry 1: Today I tried begging my mom into letting me go to the parade. But she didn't let me and i don't know why. All she said was that i can't go alone when I could have gone with my brothers Gerhard and Hans. So all I have to do now is to write in this dumb journal my mom got me.
3: Entry 2: I was woken up at like 2:30 in the morning! I got out of bed and I see mutti sitting on the floor listening to the radio. They were saying something about the Reich being burnt to the ground or somethin'. I don't really remember.
4: Entry 3 | today Helmuth came how from the war! It was a great sight to see everyone was worried that he might have been shot or something but thank god he is alright. Also he showed me this radio he brought home even though he wasn't suppose to have it, he said we are saving it for after the war is over.
5: Entry 4 | Today i got scared sooo bad! I was walking home from work with my friend Rudi when these two guards pulled up to us and started yelling at us. They said they were yelling at us because we weren't singing German songs we were singing English songs that we had heard in church. Thank god Rudi was there or something bad was going to happen.
6: Entry 5 | Today, well tonight actually i listened to my brothers radio. It was weird because it had all of the radio channels that were blocked from us. It was the news that Hitler did not want us too hear. I thought i heard someone coming so i quickly turned it off and when to bed.
7: Entry 6 | Ive been listening to the radio almost every night now and tonight is the first night i let someone come over and listen with me. It was kind of nerve racking because i wasn't sure if he was going to tell the officials or not he promised he wouldn't so hopefully he sticks to his promise.
8: Entry 7 Today was just absolutely awful. I was sitting at home when these agents came and just took me! They searched my house for the radio I have been listening to almost every night. I don't know how they found out that I was listening to the radio but now that they did I am dead meat.
9: Entry 8 today was the worst day of my life. It was interrogation day. I thought it was just going to be them asking questions but noooooo they had to punch me and kick me where they wanted. They said they wanted the truth and thats what I gave them but they didn't believe me, they said everything I was saying all lies and that nothing I said was the truth. I guess people just don't understand that a 14 year old does tell the truth.
10: Entry 9 | Today was just absolulety terrible. Right now i am sitting in my jail cell. Earlier they decided to kick and punch me because they thought that i was taking the blame (even though I was). THey were bugging me about who had the idea of the panphlet and who made it.
11: Entry 10 Today is execution day. There is no way I can survive. This is my final entry. I don't think there is a way for me to survive this physically and mentally. All I wanted is to tell everyone the truth.I wanted everyone to live a life full of truths and not a world of lies. Gerhard always told me "But to have a reason to tell the truth. you must have a deep belief." (pg.150) I think that works for me because it's not fair that people don't get the truth and I have a strong belief that people need to know the truth.