FC: Augustus Waters
1: LIVE | Augustus Waters By: Harper Leach
2: ABOUT ME | My name is Agustus Waters. I am seventeen. I had a touch of osteosarcoma a few years ago, but now I'm riding a coaster that only goes up. After being cancer free for several years, I recently found out that it is back and I am expected to die soon. We all die in the middle of living. That's how it works. I'm interested in reading and video games, but mainly my girlfriend Hazel.
3: It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you. | MEMORIES
4: Hazel and I met in a support group for cancer patients. We grew close very quickly. We just got back from a trip to Amsterdam to meet her favorite author, Peter Van Houten. The trip wasn't exactly as planned, but I love every second I spend with her. She's taught me so much about living. I just wish I didn't have to leave her. | Hazel Grace
5: ISAAC | The only reason I agreed to go to support group is because Isaac drug me along. He had some issues with an ex girlfriend right before he went blind due to a surgery to remove his cancer. I kinda felt bad for the kid. Now, he's like my right hand man. Hazel, Isaac and I are inseparable. For the most part, my memories with him are playing his blind video games all day long.
6: It's Back | The single most important event in my life was finding out my cancer was back. Not because I didn't want to die. I expected it. But it was because my days with Hazel were limited..limited far shorter than I ever imagined. I pictured me having to live without her, but now I was leaving her alone. | Hazel knew. I know she knew. By the way she looked at me that day. She knew something was wrong. I should've told her. I should've told her before. Before the last day of our trip.
7: Make A Wish | I will never regret using my wish on Hazel Grace. The Make a Wish Foundation is one of what we call "cancer perks". You know, the things people do out of pity to make you feel like a normal kid? Hazel, like many kids, used her wish to go to Disney World. I saved mine, for a situation like this one. When both Hazel and I had cancer, and weren't progressing, I used my wish to take her to Amsterdam to meet Peter Van Huten, the author of An Imperial Affliction.
8: Cigarettes, yes, cigarettes. I carry them everywhere, all the time. It's a metaphor. You put the killing thing between your mouth but don't give it the power to kill you. Cancer doesn't have a hold of me. I refuse to give it the power to kill me.
9: This is my tux. I've had it picked out for awhile now. Back when the doctors told me I didn't have long to live, I picked it out to be put in for my funeral. I figured that I would only get to wear it if I died, but in Amsterdam I got to wear it to a fancy restaurant with Hazel. I think she was impressed.
10: "You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do get some say in who hurts you" (Green 313).
11: My heart belongs to family. | This is what Agustus writes to Van Houten describing his relationship with Hazel. It takes him awhile to realize that he can't control predetermined situations, but he does know that he chose Hazel. Even if one of them dies and leaves the other, he made the choice to be with her.