FC: December 18, 2009
1: Brendan and Jackie | December 18, 2009
2: "it's not about being who everyone else wants you to be, it's about being yourself and finding someone who loves every bit of it."
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10: "Sometimes, you just need to talk to that one person who will let you talk and ramble, listen to you complain and look like an idiot, but still loves you the same"
11: L O V E
12: Nobody's perfect, until you fall n love with them
16: L | O | V | E
21: DECEMBER 18, | 2009
23: Dear Brendan, So it's December 18th 2010. Exactly a year ago, we started something that I never even thought would get this far. But somewhere in the midst of these 365 days that have passed Ive fallen in love with you and now I cant imagine not having you in my life. Weve talked every single day for a year and weve seen each other at least twice a week. I tell you everything and I completely trust you. Its impossible for me to be embarrassed in front of you now because Im so comfortable being around you. You listen to me complain constantly and watch me look like an idiot and you still love me the same. We never fight or get angry at each other for more than 45 seconds without smiling. We have so much fun together whether were out to dinner or even if were just watching a movie. So basically, were in a relationship that I see as perfect. Its so weird to think that before Halloween of last year I barely even knew who you were. You were just a cute kid that I met in band who had a lot of freckles and often turned red when he was called out on something. At that point a boyfriend was the last thing I wanted. To me it was like game. I liked to flirt with guys, get them to like me, and then deny them of a relationship when they asked. We talked for a while and then you asked me that one day do you just like me or do you want a relationship with me. And for some reason when you asked me that I didnt want to say no I dont want a relationship like I said to other guys. You were different. You made me smile more than I even thought was possible and you made me so happy.
24: So I thought even though I didn’t want a boyfriend, I didn’t want to end whatever I had with you. Then we hung out for the first time and I came over and watched Home Alone. I discovered your little baby boy hands and your lice issues, both which I loved so much. After that day I was absolutely positively sure that I only hated relationships because in my past ones, the other person was wrong for me. They were nothing like you. They weren’t organized and smart or cute and funny. They didn’t take the time to text me if I didn’t text them first. They didn’t wait for me after classes or make me laugh without trying. They never made me feel like one of the luckiest and happiest girls in the world. So you asked me out and I said yes and I can honestly say that was one of the best decisions I have ever made that somewhat changed me. Since then my feelings for you have done nothing but got stronger. I love spending time with you and when I’m not with you, I’m constantly wishing I was. I love wrestling with you and just pushing each other around, snuggling with you and watching movies. I love going out to dinner and singing with you in the car (or more like singing to you because you still won’t sing to me.) I love walking with you in the hallways and holding your hand and acting like an idiot with you and saying stupid things to each other. My favorite is just sitting on your bed having super serious talks that just make me realize that not only are you my boyfriend but you’re also my best friend. I really don’t think you get how much you mean to me. And I can’t even help you get it because there’s no way I can express it. No amount of “I love you”s could even begin to explain.
25: Sometimes you’re the only thing that gets me through my day and other times I wonder how I actually would get through my days without you. You have the cutest smile and the hottest body I’ve ever seen, even though you deny it. I know I’m just rambling but it’s crazy how over the past 12 months I went from liking you to loving you and now I’m truly in love with you. You’re my first love Brendan Ehlinger, and hopefully you’ll be my last. Happy 1 year, babe. I love you so much. Love forever and ever and EVER, Jaclynn Emig