S: My Battle With Cancer
BC: Oh, my friend, it's not what they take away from you that counts - it's what you do with what you have left. ~Hubert Humphrey
FC: My Battle With Cancer | Eric | Eric Smith Trainer 2011 - 2012
1: I was diagnosed with cancer on March 11, 2011. After having surgery to remove a large tumor in the left side of my neck, a complete biopsy revealed the tumor was a poorly differentiated, metastatic Squamous Cell Carcinoma that had spread from the primary cancer location to a lymph node in my neck. My official diagnosis was made on March 29, 2011 as Stage IVA Tonsil Cancer. | Here is my Story...
2: Sunday, April 3, 2011 11:08 PM Eric, you know that I love you and pray for you daily. I hope you are reading from the book I gave you the other day, Jesus Talking. As I told you Sheri gave me a copy of the book when I started my chemo in August 2009. Each day it has a message especially for your situation. Remember your Dad and I are here for you and the boys. Any time you need us to pick them up from school or if you just don't feel well, we can come get them. I know you are anxious to get this chemo thing started and over with. Mom | June 20, 2011 7:59pm Eric, you are the ultimate host. Thanks for the Father's Day celebration at your house yesterday. We all had a great time. I hope we didn't wear you completely out. You looked so good and it was good to see you joking and making us all laugh. I hope this week is better for you. We need to keep the milkshakes coming!! I love you, Mom | August 14, 2011 7:42pm Eric, just 9 more treatments and this thing will be over. I am so proud of you and how you have handled this. I hope you read Nancy Raulston's last entry. She is such a prayer warrior and I really appreciate what she says to you. Thank you, Nancy for being such a good friend. ~Mom
3: Monday, April 25, 2011 11:29am Eric went to church at NFW Baptist Sunday morning. It was so good to look at the audience from the choir and see his smiling face. Jared played the drums in the orchestra and accompanied the choir. Eric especially liked seeing Jared follow in his footsteps. They are both excellent drummers. He had Easter dinner with us, his family. We were all there except Kevin and his family. They were missed. Again we thank everyone for their prayers for all of us, especially Eric. ~Mom | Friday, April 29, 2011 12:06pm Keep keeping on. I know it isn't comfortable, with your throat so sore. But hang in there. I hope you are able to enjoy your boys this weekend. Enjoyed our supper last night. I love you and your boys so much. Do call the doctor if you have a temperature. That's a mother for you. Always concerned about their kids. ~Mom | June 16, 2011 11:33am Eric, Kristi didn't mention in the Journal that you would be having chemo as well as the radiation beginning Monday, July 11th; I think it was a shock to both of us when we went to see the radiologist Tuesday. But you can get through it as you have the past three chemo sessions. We just need to keep your weight up so you don't have to have the feeding tube. The nurse said to eat a lot of soft foods with a lot of butter and creamy toppings. In other words a lot of calories. But as tough and determined as you are, you could handle the feeding tube as well. I am so proud of the way you are handling this tough time in your life. I know that the Lord is pleased with you and is in charge of every aspect of your treatment. Just keep the faith. I love you very much. Mom
4: First appointment after diagnosis Dr. Patel Bedford, TX | July 22, 2011 4:29pm I got your text about your schedule for Monday: 5:30 a.m. hospital, 7:30 am surgery to put in feeding tube, Radiation at 11:30 and chemo at 1:45. I liked the golf tee time at 3:55 (Ha) Still my optimistic son. I am so proud of you. Dad and I can take you to the hospital. My doctor appointment isn't until 2:00 p.m. Hang in there. You are loved by me and many others. ~Mom
5: Thursday, March 31, 2011 11:18 PM Eric you are an amazing person and I have been praying and will continue praying for you and your family. Know that I will be with you every step. Stay positive! Love you, Christine Innes Friday, April 1, 2011 5:25 PM Eric, I'm praying for you and your family. Your family and friends will be a strong support group for you. Let them help you; draw on their strength when you need it. Laugh a lot because laughter is like good medicine. Keep your eyes on God and your faith in Him. I love you and your family. Blessings, Suzette Rogers Friday, April 1, 2011 5:32 PM Eric,Your mother is in my group at BSF, and each lady in our group is praying for you, along with the Joyful Noise Choir at Plymouth Park Baptist Church. You have a lot of people praying for you everyday. We are studying Isaiah, as your mother may have told you, and there are so many wonderful promises God gives us through Isaiah. "I will not forget you! See I have engraved you on the palms of my hands, your walls are ever before me." Isa. 49:16 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isa. 41:10. Keep looking to God's greatness. He will sustain you. Love in Christ, Brenda Jordan Saturday, April 2, 2011 7:41 AM I could not believe it when I heard the news. Of course our Moms still keep in touch even after all these years, so I always get updated on the "Trainers". My prayers are with you and know you never walk alone through any journey. You have his guidance, and the guidance through the love and support of family and friends. Take care Eric and I look forward to hearing news of good progress. Joni Rios Saturday, April 2, 2011 9:54 AM Hey Eric, We are praying for God's peace and comfort for you as you start the treatments and for your precious boys and family as well!! Stephani Estes Saturday, April 2, 2011 8:31 PM Eric, I love you to pieces. I saw a sign at a church the other day that said "Jesus knows me, this I love" It took me a minute, but then I thought how powerful that was. One of my favorite verses is 2 Timothy 1:7. God did not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, of love and a sound mind. How precious you are to me. Harriet Damon
6: Thursday, March 31, 2011 4:51 PM, CDT Eric is still feeling well despite this ugly thing we call "Cancer." I realize so many of his friends and family are trying to get the latest news on his condition and I will do my best to keep you updated through this journal as he begins his treatment. Life has been tough the last few months as he has waited on his diagnosis and now that it is here, he needs time to process all the information. He has appointments almost daily as he gets ready for chemo, and radiation and those alone can drain him. Anxiety is high as well as emotion as he starts this incredible journey, but he is anxious to get started. He is positive! Much stronger than I am at times when I stop long enough to realize this is really happening. We all need to fight, help, love and most of all pray. Not only for Eric's health, but his strength. Please really pray! My goal is to just be there for him every step of the way and see him on the other side. I also know many of you out there want to share your stories, your encouragement and you can do that by signing the guest book (he can read these at his leisure). I know Eric, Larry, Dru and the boys greatly appreciate everyone's support. Thank you. Believe in Eric! Love, Kristi
8: Thursday, March 31, 2011 6:56 PM I hope you know I believe you can beat this. I care about you so much and will do anything to help you get through this. Stay strong and don't give up no matter how hard it gets. Love you! Kristi Tefertiller | Thursday, March 31, 2011 6:56 PM I hope you know I believe you can beat this. I care about you so much and will do anything to help you get through this. Stay strong and don't give up no matter how hard it gets. Love you! Kristi Monday, April 18, 2011 8:07pm Feel weird not giving a shout out every once in awhile too! Thank you for letting me share this journey with you. I can't imagine being anywhere else! Kristi May 2, 2011 11:35pm It was great to see you smiling today. Enjoyed lunch with you and your Mom. Keep your chin up!! Love, Kristi June 20, 2011 7:06pm You got this! I know it is so hard, but I also know you can do it! I think you are even tougher than you realize. Love u, Kristi
9: Saturday, April 2, 2011 11:07 PM Eric, We at Memorial Baptist Church have you on our prayer list and have entered your name in our church bulletin. Joan Few Monday, April 4, 2011 9:16 AM Stay strong, stay positive and most of all please reach out to your family and friends when you need it. We are all here and praying hard for you. Love ya, Shannon, Stephen, Spencer and Sydney Monday, April 4, 2011 11:21 AM I love you cuz! We are all praying for you and we are here if you need anything. Please do not hesitate to ask. Love, Mandi, Chris, Mari, and Phoebe Monday, April 4, 2011 6:59 PM ET - we are praying for you, and we are here for you. We are believing miracles for your health, with God ALL things are possible! Stay positive, and please let us know anything we can do to help. Kevin, Rindi, Hollyan, and Hannah Monday, April 4, 2011 8:54 PM Hi Eric, Just want you to know I'm thinking of you and praying for you. Love, Stacy Thorne Monday, April 4, 2011 9:05 PM When God is for us, who can be against us....!? I know you are a believer in that, stay positive. We are here for you in however we can help. Don't forget to say your own prayers while there are so many others praying for you too! I put out a prayer request to a couple in our church thru Gateway that are prayer warriors and their whole team will be praying for you a quick recovery and healing to take place. Keep your positive outlook and don't be discouraged. We love you and are here for you. Jeff, Dody, Hayden and Blake
10: Wednesday, April 6, 2011 6:48 PM, CDT Today's appointment was for the Intro to Radiation. His Dr. and Nurse were both great! I think Eric is a little down by the picture they paint for this treatment, especially since he will more than likely lose his taste buds. I have tried to give him some idea based on what I have read, but I like for him to hear the bad news from the Dr. He goes for Pre-op for Port implant on Friday, gets port on Monday and the following Monday starts treatment! He is anxious! We took some goofy photos today. Enjoy!
11: Wednesday, April 6, 2011 7:31 PM Thank God you finally found Nemo! I've been so worried... ;). Love you!! Rae Martin
12: Monday, April 4, 2011 11:04 PM Hey Eric, it's a "blast from the past". I'm so sorry we have this cancer journey in common. Ray is beyond chemo, radiation or surgery but we're ever hopeful that the God of miracles, our God, will intervene and put his kidney cancer into remission. It will be easy to remember to pray for you, I'll pray the same for you that I do for Ray. You have a great family support system. We love you all! Nancy Raulston Tuesday, April 5, 2011 5:13 PM Hey Eric, It has been way too long since we last spoke. You have always been the friend that I could go months without talking to and then pick right up where we left off. I will keep you in my prayers. When you feel up to it...I'd sure like to get to that next conversation! Love ya man. James Hallum Tuesday, April 5, 2011 7:28 PM Thinking of you and praying for you and your family. Love ya! Kasie Ellis Tuesday, April 5, 2011 8:07 PM Hi Eric! I'm so glad to hear you are being strong!! It doesn't surprise me though. You have a wonderful example in your precious mother! You are constantly in my prayers!!! I'm praying God's wonderful peace for you as you go through this journey! I love you!! You are precious to me!!! Love, "Aunt" Melissa Tuesday, April 5, 2011 10:45 PM Hi, Eric. Looks like you have many friends and family pulling for you. So am I. I love you and think of you every day. Aunt Dee Wednesday, April 6, 2011 8:06 AM Eric, I believe in you and believe that you are strong enough to beat this cancer. I think of you often and pray for you daily. I love you, Denise Bays
15: Thursday, April 7, 2011 8:49 PM You are in my thoughts and prayers my friend. I am here if there is anything I can do. Steve Cobb Thursday, April 7, 2011 8:54 PM Lots of prayers for you, your family & the doctors treating you. Cindy Wright Ballew Thursday, April 7, 2011 11:37 PM So I doubt very seriously that you will ever read these... but....just in case.... I wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you and keeping you, your family and all of your doctors in my prayers. I hope you'll let me know if there is absolutely anything (no matter how big or how small) that I can do for you or for your family. Okay? Thanks for keeping us all updated on your progress. Love, Brittney Friday, April 8, 2011 12:37 AM Eric: Just wanted to let you know that Tanya and I are thinking about you and praying for you! Take care and God bless! Brad Stoller Friday, April 8, 2011 5:13 PM Hello Eric, Sharon and I will be praying for you and everyone involved with your life and the journey you are on as is so many other friends are. Ronald Garrett | Friday, April 8, 2011 5:25 PM Hi Eric, I'm so sorry you're going through this! Even though it's been many, many years (let's don't go there!), I know you have the right spirit and attitude to beat this! Even though we've all changed somewhat, I can tell from your pictures that you're still the Eric we all know and love. YES, I BELIEVE...in you, in the doctors and the advancement of treatment, and in GOD's power and strength. I will be praying for you and your family. I'm so thankful we have the technology of sites like Facebook and Caring Bridge to keep people in touch, supporting and loving each other! Please keep us posted and know that you have many thinking about you and praying for you. We'll see you at the reunion in September and you can show us your scars! Love ya, Dana Friday, April 8, 2011 9:48 PM Eric, If anyone can beat this, you can!! You have so many people who care about you and are lifting you up in our thoughts and prayers. I feel so lucky to call you friend and I cannot wait to see you walking the survivor walk for many years to come. Please continue to keep us all posted on your progress. Let me know if there is ever anything I can do for you. Much love, Ronda Clardy Doe Friday, April 8, 2011 10:07 PM Hi Eric, we know your wonderful parents, and your brother and his family. I feel like we know you. Jack and I will be with you in spirit on your journey. We are aware of the quick changes life can make, such as Drusilla's cancer and Jack's. None of us know what tomorrow holds and that is probably a big blessing. Our prayers are with you daily and we know from experience that it will give you peace and endurance from the Holy Spirit. Bless you and your family....... Connie and Jack Renfro
16: Wednesday, April 6, 2011 11:26 AM Eric, stay positive. You are strong, and I know you have what it takes to fight this fight. I think of you and pray for you every day that you have the courage and strength to get you through this. Your friends and family are always here for you. Love, Cindy Wienhold Wednesday, April 6, 2011 4:54 PM I just wanted to lift your spirits higher to know 2 of your favorite little fans prayed for you last night in their own prayers. Even as Blake has changed his saying from Uncle Trainer to Mr. Trainer to be like the big boys, they still see you as Uncle Trainer. Keep your sense of humor going and keep positive even when your feeling low, that's how we all know your the best. Love you, The Raley's
17: Monday, April 11, 2011 6:46 PM, CDT TODAY ERIC GOT HIS PORT! Eric did great! Surgery went well with Dru by his side. He is still sportin' the purple socks they give him and just recently decided to shed the white hose. Spirits are high and he is cracking himself up! See the video my daughter took (he posted it on facebook). I am not sure why it is upside down(6 year old). He is one step closer to chemo day! Also posted a funny pic or two from today!
18: hh | Wednesday, April 6, 2011 10:50 PM Well dang! I just found out you had this site. Folks are going to think I don't care about you. Well they would be wrong. I love you like a brother....wait.....you are my brother. Seriously though, I love you like no other and I've always admired you for just being you. I do want you to know that I am praying and asking people to pray for you daily. I'm always praying that God's will be done but specifically that your treatment doesn't make you feel sick. I hate that this crap is in you and if I could trade places with you I would. Call me anytime if you need anything! Love ya man! Darren May 4, 2011 7:59am Just checking in big brother. I'm glad to hear that you're feeling a little better. I really believe prayers are working. Just so you know people I don't even know at my church are always asking about you and letting me know they are praying for you. Love ya! Darren | Saturday, April 9, 2011 10:06 PM We are with you on this E.T. ~ Kevin | Nov 20, 2011 8:51am Hey little Brother, keep up the good work. as I recall you never enjoyed eating when we were kids ,so just hang in there . Love Kevin
19: ssss | Friday, April 15, 2011 11:19 PM, CDT This is just a note from me Eric Trainer. I wanted everyone to know that I do read each and every one of your notes. I REALLY do appreciate all my family and friends for their prayers and support. Please keep my boys (Aaron and Ethan) in your prayers as well. They are GREAT kids and they are aware of my illness. I really want to fight hard for them. Again, Thanks so much for the support. It is nice to read notes from old friends. I will talk with ya'll later Love E.T.
21: Monday, April 18, 2011 4:20 PM, CDT Day One of a tough 9 week chemo regimen The way Eric puts it is: IT HAS BEGUN! I am happy to report that Eric is almost finished with his first day of chemo. It has been a long day. Arrived at 9:30, started chemo at 11:00am and is almost finished up! I cannot remember if I have told you before, but his chemo regimen is going to be a tough one. He will definitely lose his hair! Not too bad, considering. He swears he will not get sick enough to throw up and I hope that it true. So proud of his great attitude. A lady commented to me just today in the elevator, "your friend at least has a sense of humor." I agreed. He sat next to a lady today in chemo that told us all about her relationship with her family. At the end, she said, "Well, I am sure you don't care about hearing the negatives of my family." Of course, Eric replied..."Well, its too late now!" She thought it was funny! God has answered our prayers today as he finishes up treatment at the infusion center. He does not feel anything so far, just has to go to the bathroom a lot with all the liquids running through him. He will also take home a pump that will be attached to him 24 hours a day for the next four days. The pump administers the third kind of chemo. On Friday, he will return to the infusion center to have it removed. Then two weeks of waiting until the process starts again. The doctor said he might not feel the full effect of the chemo for 7-10 days, but could be sooner. Keep praying!!! I would say his biggest complaint right now is just the anxiety that goes along with all the unkown's. He really does appreciate everyones concern and most of all the prayers and kind words. He is a fighter and today was the first day to recovery!
22: I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me Phillipians 4:13
23: Monday, April 18, 2011 10:38 PM Eric, it's tough, no doubt about it. We know, we're in the throws of the cancer battle too. We are a bit further along so we can assure you that the prayers of your family and friends can lead to unbelievable peace and comfort. We pray for you as we do ourselves: for courage,strength,peace, hope and the assurance that God is in control and He has the perfect plan. Love,Nancy | Tuesday, April 19, 2011 6:55 AM I got you on my mind Eric :) Susie Rain Friday, April 22, 2011 9:18 PM Eric, I am so glad that your first round of chemo is over. I hope you can get some rest this weekend and will be feeling stronger soon. Know that there are many prayers going up for you. I hope you have a great Easter with your boys. Ronda | Saturday, April 16, 2011 2:42 AM love you and your spirit! you know...Christine InnesL Monday, April 18, 2011 8:33 AM Thinking of you today and saying a prayer for you that chemo starts off well for you. We love you and hope to see you real soon! Remember you are Eric Trainer, GO, FIGHT, WIN!! Dody Raley
24: Apr 22, 2011 9:18pm Hang in there E.T., we love you and still praying daily. Keep fighting daily and don't give up hope when the going gets tough. Psalms 23, when your needing comfort.We love you, Dody Apr 25, 2011 8:08am Eric, I am praying that you get good news today at the Drs. I have a family friend who had throat cancer and he fought a really tough battle and is doing great now. I remember how he would talk about how sore his throat was during his treatments. He drank a lot of Ensure and said it would sooth his throat. He said the colder it was the better it was. I know you have a tough battle ahead but you can beat this!!! There are a lot of us praying for you. Ronda May 2, 2011 1:24pm Just wanted to let you know that Kevin and I have been thinking about you and praying for you. We are believing the Lord for complete healing for your body. Hang in there, though the road my be tough, He is always with you! Rindi Trainer May 4, 2011 3:52pm Eric, Jim really enjoyed seeing you and all the family Easter. You and your boys are always in my prayers. Hang in there, and as your Granny used to say, "This too shall pass". I love you. Aunt Harriet May 4, 2011 5:56pm Hey Eric! I hope you continue doing okay. I have been keeping you in my prayers and keep checking on your progress. I wish you nothing but the best. It was good to see to you recently, wish it had been under better circumstances. Maybe next time I get to Dallas we can catch up over a cold beer when you are feeling better and I'm there for something happier. Wishing you a speedy and full recovery. I will keep you in my prayers. Hugs.... Ginger Pippin
25: Teeth Cleaning Part of the preparation for radiation is to have all dental work done and a good cleaning.
26: Friday, April 22, 2011 4:28 PM, CDT Rough Week ~1st Week of Chemo Completed!!! This has been a really tough week for Eric. He has been extremely tired and drained. He has started feeling the effects of the chemo. He is feeling nauseated and weak and really not up for visitors much, but REALLY appreciates all the well wishes and concern. He had his chemo drip removed from the port today and he is so glad to be rid of it. The machine makes a little noise every time it releases the drug and cannot help but remind him that it is there. He also has not been able to take a true shower and could not wait to get home from the doctor to be able to do that!! He said he feels free again. The doctor told us it might be the 7th to 10th day before the real affects might show up, we can only pray that the worst is over for this round. I have been so proud of him, because although tough, he has managed to at least eat a shake everyday. He has lost 5lbs. already. So, my next prayer is that he can fight through the next week and then maybe the third week will bring positive news. I saw him very down today, very discouraged. I know that the nausea alone can just naw at you and your attitude, so considering, he is holding up well. On a more positive note, he got to spend Thursday with the boys and said he really enjoyed it! His biggest need short term is financial! If anyone has ideas on how we can earn some money for the lawn and the pool that would be a huge blessing. He absolutely cannot stand it when the pool is dirty and with all the rain, it is hard to keep clean. I have found him on a few occasions out trying to do it himself. Sometimes, although he feels strong enough to do it, it zaps him of ALL his energy. Email me if you can help. Keep smiling Eric, we love you and I promise we will get through this! Kristi
27: Sunday, April 24, 2011 11:35 PM, CDT Just thinking... Chemo is making his throat very sore. He said really it is his whole mouth along with a numb tongue. I am choosing to believe that the sore throat means it is working. That the drugs are shrinking the cancer in his throat and this is something temporary. I went by tonight and took him dinner. My sisters rode with me, Eric looked good and seemed in good spirits. Even when he doesn't feel good, he puts on a good show!! :-). He returns tomorrow for his first blood check since chemo started. Looking forward to good news! Maybe it will let him know that his body is going to hold up!!! Sometimes he questions that! I'm sure that is normal when you feel sick! He felt up to going to the Ranger game on Saturday night! He made it the whole game. Hopefully that helps to have some normalcy in his life. Pray for good news tomorrow, that his blood counts look good! He is such a fighter and I believe with all my heart that he will beat this! When I see him down, I have to remind myself that God promised not to give him more than he can handle! God is good. He will see him through this! Thank you for listening! Kristi
29: Tuesday, May 3, 2011 11:55 PM, CDT Things are looking up! Eric has improved tremendously in the past week. His throat is much better and the nausea, stomach cramps, etc. are gone. He has been much more upbeat and social this past weekend. He had the boys this weekend and that always makes him smile. What a blessing that he can get this break in from all the side effects. Unfortunately, chemo starts again Monday, and he seems ready! Get ready round number two...here he comes! Keep him in your prayers! Thanks again for all the support and encouragement, it makes a difference. Monday, May 9, 2011 3:56 PM, CDT Well, here we go again! Round two of chemo is underway. Blood work looked good today so he was able to start treatment this morning as planned. He had a great week last week, felt good. He was able to enjoy Mother's Day with his family. Hopefully, this round of treatment will be tolerated by his body as well as the last round. He is tough! He still gets fatigued, but is taking good care of himself. Keep praying! Thank you for your support!
30: Tuesday, May 10, 2011 4:02 PM, CDT I hate to report that Eric had a very rough night and day. He called me very early this morning to say that he had been up vomiting all night and again that morning. Chemo finally caught up to him. He couldn't keep nausea meds down. After talking to the doctor, they insisted he come in for iv fluids o break the cycle and get his body back on track. Not so sure he liked it, but he went anyway. He has slept all day since he arrived home. They gave him not only fluids to hydrate him again, but something for the nausea and to help him rest. He is out!! All in all, I think he will feel much better when he wakes up. Let's hope so. Continue to keep him in your prayers and keep signing the guestbook. Thursday, May 12, 2011 1:59 AM, CDT Eric is feeling a little better. He is going everyday this week for iv fluids while he finishes up the 5FU Chemo that he gets via IV at home throughout the week. He has begun to lose his hair. I don't think it will be long before he shaves it completely. Slowly, but surely, we are all learning the ropes in the chemo world. Nurses and physicians have been great and are taking great care of him. I told him from the beginning that it will be harder than he can imagine, and I think the reality of that has come true. He sleeps pretty much all day right now. Sometimes he's so asleep his Mom or I go by to check on him and he doesn't even realize we've been there. Honestly, I hope he CAN just sleep through this rough week. God is by his side and giving him a peace that only he can give. God is good.
31: Wednesday, May 18, 2011 11:00 PM, CDT Just an update to let everyone know that ET is feeling much more functional. He is extremely weak and tires easy, but able to take short car rides, go to church, etc. His appetite is less than adequate for what he needs to be eating, but for now, we are taking baby steps. Feeding him when he will eat and spoiling him with ice cream when nothing else tastes good. He told me the other day, "anyone can lose weight, just lose your taste-buds and you will not want to eat.". I am so proud of what he has accomplished so far!! Heading into his 5th week is remarkable with only a couple of hiccups along the way. My main concern today is his sleep. As of this morning, he told me he had only slept about 6 hours in the last few days. Yikes! He is struggling with his concentration and I think it is just anxiety and lack of sleep. So...Dr. gave him a prescription to give him longer and more sound sleep. Pray this will work and he can get back on track. All in all, I know he is just tired of feeling so weak. He said he never really imagined it would wipe him out so much! Keep him in your prayers and just keep believing in him!!!
32: Last day of Chemo
33: Last week of Chemo, Written Jun 9, 2011 10:23pm Sorry this update comes so late. Eric is not experiencing as extreme side effects this round, but definitely does not feel well. He has been in the bed nonstop since Tuesday morning. This treatment just drains his energy, especially while he still has the third drug attached. He is very anxious to be rid of the chemo bag and looks forward to feeling like himself again. Honestly, in a way, this round of treatment has worked on his mind a little. He just felt so well at the end of the last three week cycle and it's been hard anticipating the reality of how he feels. He has been very tough and Dr. Patel seems quite pleased with the way his body has handled such a tough regimen. He worries about if it's working or not and that unknown can bring him down, but I am so proud of him! He looks really good. He tells me he thinks he looks terrible, but I think that in the last two weeks he is looking so much stronger. Yes, he has lost his hair in case anyone was wondering, but he wears that look well. He needs to complete this three week cycle and then he will start preparing for radiation. He has to go 5 days a week for 7 weeks. He is determined he is going back to work during radiation, but I am encouraging otherwise. He worries about money a lot and I think that will ultimately drive his decision. So...we will see.Everyone has been great with all the offers to help. Again, if you would like to make donations of any form...please email me or for financial donations I will be happy to pass along his address. Don't forget that donating to caring bridge does not help Eric personally. Gary and Nancy, Eric really appreciates your generosity and all the prayers. In closing, it's been a little rough, but really, Eric has done incredible. Prayers are being answered!...thank you, thank you, thank you! Kristi
34: May 9, 2011 4:01pm I hope round 2 goes well for you! Love you! Always in my prayers!!Tanya Hughey May 9, 2011 5:43pm Hi Eric, I just wanted to check in and say hello. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope round 2 goes well ! Joni Rios May 9, 2011 11:36pm Hang in there E! Attitude is everything. Dean Berube May 10, 2011 12:10am Hi Eric, I had no idea! I will certainly be praying for you (and your family, too!). I will keep up with your progress here, too. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you! GinaTeague May 10, 2011 6:24am Hey Eric sounds like your doing good hang in there I know it's got to be tough but you have a lot of people who care about you. Joel Green May 10, 2011 8:14am Still praying Eric. you've got great family and friends with you every step. see you around. Ed Terrill May 10, 2011 12:47pm Hey Eric! I just wanted to say hello and let you know that I am praying for you! I know you are strong and can beat this! Hang in there! Trust in God. Debbie Spence May 10, 2011 4:29pm Eric I'm sorry you're having a rough time. I hope it gets better soon. Thinking about you. Denise Bays May 10, 2011 6:20pm Eric,The oncologist and nurses are there to help you. Don't hesitate to let them know what you are going through. Usually, they can combat it with other meds or treatments. I'm praying for you .Suzette Rogers
35: May 11, 2011 11:32am Hey Eric,Just heard from Gina Teague about this website. I just wanted to let you know that me and my family will pray for your recovery. The human body is resilient and can endure a lot. Hang in there and keep up the fight. Alex Varela May 12, 2011 8:32am Eric,I wanted to stop by and tell you that I am thinking about you and continuing to pray that God will heal you. I know you are going through a rough time right now and I am praying that God will give you the strength to remain strong and know that there are better days ahead for you. There are so many people who care about you and are praying for you. but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.Isaiah 40:31 Ronda Doe May 12, 2011 11:04am I'm praying for you, Eric. Can't wait to see and hear that you are feeling better! Gina Teague May 12, 2011 3:52pm E.T~We are thinking of you and again we pray a prayer for you every night. Hang in there, be funny, it just comes natural for you.....WE love you and are just down the street for whatever you may need, don't hesitate, will do whatever it is we can do!!! Try and keep up your spirits as much as possible, I hear it helps when fighting this battle, but you will WIN !! Love you, The Raley's May 14, 2011 9:53pm ET, We continue to pray for you through your treatments! Greg, Kris, Peter, Zack and Josh Correro. May 19, 2011 8:48am Just thinking about you. Nice to hear things are a little better. Hope the sleep gets better. Love the new pic. Stay strong. Shannon Hataway
38: June 18, 2011 9:41am | It has been a rough week. I think to the outside world, he wants to appear okay, when he is truly miserable. He gets up some to hang out with the kids, etc., but all the while...he is barely hanging in there. No vomiting think goodness, because if there isn't much going in, he can't afford to have anything going out. His tongue, cheeks and mouth in general, are really sore. His diet consists of chocolate shakes, and fruit smoothies. Awaiting a procedure of my own, and being on a liquid diet myself, I took chicken broth over. We sat out and watched the kids swim and drank our chicken broth out of coffee cups. It was only 100 degrees!!! Eric was sporting a sweatshirt because he was cold :-(. He said it tasted so good! You know you have been deprived of food if you are excited about chicken broth! The soup did give him a little more color and revive his spirit a little bit. Yesterday, he was not well at all. He was really dizzy and nauseated and weak. By the time, I could talk him in to going for fluids, it was too late. He absolutely refused the ER route, even though the orders were already waiting there from the Dr. Stubborn man!! He promised me that next time it gets that bad he will not fight it so much, and try harder to stay on top of his drinking and getting something of nutrition in his body. I really hate having to report the negatives, but it is what it is.
39: May 19, 2011 12:25pm Eric, So sorry to hear round two has been rough but want you to know we are still "wrestling in prayer for you" just look at each day one at a time and not rush ahead to what might be. Praying for your strength,healing and peace. Ruby Held May 19, 2011 4:13pm Eric, You looked great on Sunday and this picture of you and your son is great! Just remember, His Grace is Sufficient..... Praying for you everyday, Lola Greathouse May 30, 2011 1:10pm Hi Eric! I have heard a little bit through David on how you are doing. I just want to let you know that I pray for you AND The boys! I can see the boys light up when they are with you. Roman and Adam think you are the funniest person and enjoy being over there hanging with their buds! If you ever need sleep or just don't feel like doing anything, just send me a text and I'll come get the boys and they can hang over here. Your in my thoughts. Suzanna Simpson Jun 9, 2011 11:03am Been awhile since we heard anything, I hope you are having a better time this go around. Jeff said he checked in on you beginning of week and you were in bed. Our family still prays every night for you, I pray God is hearing our prayers. Hayden and Blake they don't miss a beat about praying for your cancer to be gone every night. They love you and think you are the coolest!! Again, we are here to help, let us know when you have the boys and if you need help or feel up to a visit. WEwillall be elated when you get that PET Scan and the CANCER is GONE!! We love you and keep your spirits up! Dody Raley
40: Dr. Patel wrote the official diagnosis and chemo/radiation regimen on the white paper that covered the exam table.
41: June 24, 2011 6:39am Great day on Wednesday!! He truly seemed okay, but just still weak. He swam a little and tossed the football. All in all, just a good day. I always love to see him smiling or every once in awhile I see a glimpse of just the genuine happiness. The kind you can't create for someone. It is just there. His moods are up and down, as well as the strength to fight. We are getting close to the July appointment...pray for good news. Eric, we all love to see you smile, lean on us. Jesus is watching over you.
42: Time for more treatment! July 8, 2011 3:46pm As most of you already know the Trainer family has hit an unexpected bump in the road. Dru is currently in the hospital after having surgery on her intestines. Her cancer has grown a little faster than expected. It is certainly not my call, but I would suggest giving Larry and Dru time to process this and get through recovery of the surgery before asking many questions. | Just the support is great! As far as Eric goes, he is doing great right now. Feels good and going in the next phase of treatment with no severe problems. He starts radiation on Monday. They will also be giving him a low dose chemotherapy every Monday to help the radiation work better. I have posted a picture of his mask that they will use for the radiation. He will be undergoing radiation therapy five days a week for about 6 1/2 weeks. He is anxious to get it over with!!! Keep praying that his body will endure it well and the cancer will be gone. It will take about 6-8 weeks for his body to cool down after the radiation before they can scan him and see if any of this treatment is working. We are optimistic. Please also keep Larry and the whole Trainer family in your prayers as well, as Dru fights through this. Strong woman! Strong family!! Love ya'll, Kristi
43: June 14, 2011 4:34pm Eric: Hope you are feeling better this week! Just want you to know that you are still in our daily prayers. Take care and God bless! Brad & Tanya June 17, 2011 10:35am I'd order gravy with a side of gravy! Jennifer Trainer June 18, 2011 10:46am Hi Eric, I have been praying for you. I hope you are feeling better. Can I bring you some lunch (or dinner)one day this coming week? Please let me! Gina Jun e24, 2011 7:49am Whats up E! Drink it up! Smoothies and Soup until you cannot stand it. Keep up the good fight. Dean Berube June25, 2011 10:39pm I know your radiation treatments are coming up and I will be praying for you every step of the way. I am glad to hear that you are feeling better and sounding more like yourself! Keep it up! Cindy Wienhold July 8, 2011 5:39pm Was just thinking of you all hope you are doing well miss you all and hope to see you all soon. Love Joel Green July 10, 2011 8:18am Eric,I start each day with a prayer that God will restore your strength and health. I am glad to hear that you are feeling better. I will be thinking about you this week as you go through radiation. I know you can beat this horrible disease. I am also praying for your mom. Hang in there and keep fighting the good fight. There are a lot of people praying for you!! Ronda Doe
44: July 9, 2011 Ranger Baseball Game Rafael Palmeiro Suite
47: July 23, 2011 10:14am First two weeks of radiation are over and Eric has tolerated them well. He has met with a nutritionist now and she highly recommends he go ahead and get the feeding tube. So...Monday morning is the day. I think it will make a world of difference on how much energy he has. Immediately after that he will resume his original chemo radiation therapy. He is making progress in the right direction and is making an effort to stay confident. I think he is finally realizing that radiation is going to be tough! Ya know, he thinks I keep him strong, but really I learn something new from his strength everyday. Keep fighting! ~!
50: He is actually keeping his weight up, but just losing a lot of muscle mass. Still cute as ever. Keep praying for continued success in a so far very successful journey. | Jul 25, 2011 1:27pm Feeding tube is in.! He did great!! His neck is starting to turn red from the radiation and of course his mouth is very sore, but hanging tough. He can still eat solids, but he has almost lost all his taste buds, so he will supplement when needed.
51: July 13, 2011 8:51am So how ya feelin'? How were your first 2 radiation treatments?Jennifer Trainer July 23, 2011 3:36pm Eric,I am glad to hear that you have completed a couple of your radiation treatments. Each one is one step closer to beating this horrible disease. I think you will be glad you decided to get the feeding tube. I have a friend who had esophagus cancer and he didn't want the feeding tube but his throat hurt so bad that he couldn't eat anything. He got the feeding tube and it made him feel so much better. He gained some weight and some strength from it and was really glad that he decided to do it. I am praying for you and will pray extra hard on Monday morning. Keep us posted on how things are going. Ronda Doe July 23, 2011 4:07pm Hang in there Eric!!! We think of you everyday!!! Hope to see you soon. Glenn and Stephanie Hupfer July 25, 2011 2:43pm Great job, Eric! Praying for you.Gina Teague July 25, 2011 3:08pm Okay buddy, time to rip into those greens. This is where Vitamix Is going to step up to the plate. Hang positive. Raw food it up.D Berube July 25, 2011 5:25 pm Hey Eric~ so glad everything is going well. Praying for you and your family. You will have some serious stories to tell when this is over! Keep smiling!! Love ya! Ro Alford | July 26, 2011 5:08pm My prayers are with you my friend! I know this has been tough and I know that God is with you and your family. I am catching up as I got married in the past week and have been busy over the last couple of months getting the final details for the big day. Now that the wedding is over and Jeni and I are moving ahead, I wanted to catch up on your progress, as well as let you know you still have my prayers for you and your family.Take care and God Bless,Steve Cobb July 26, 2011 5:46pmGood seeing you this past week....I pray your surgery went well and I hope you are feeling good! We love you and keep you and your Mom in our prayers every night. You guys can beat this !!! Stay true to yourself and keep pushing forward, don't give up, you have a lot to be thankful for how far you have come! We hope to see you soon. God Bless, we are here for the helping hand as you need us.Love you,Dody Raley August 3, 2011 6:32pm Eric it was so great seeing you today and seeing your smile! I think of you often. You are doing great! I love seeing that you still have your sense of humor throughout this. It was such a great surprise seeing you today. Take care!Marin Haynes August 9, 2011 6:49am Thank you for the update!! I know as hard as it can be, GOD is still in control, we have been very diligent in our prayers believe me, Jeff and the boys and I pray every single night for you. I love the profile picture, glad you have the boys and they give you the push you need to keep fighting. We love you all and it brings tears to my eyes right now just looking at that picture. I know you love them with all your heart! The love we have for our kids is unconditional and they can help get us through anything.Keep strong Eric, lean on your faith and know that GOD can heal you! WE are praying just that and we have been thanking him in our prayers for healing you already. That is faith! I believe this with all of my heart as tears are pouring from eyes typing this! Hope to see you soon.WE love you,Jeff, Dody, Hayden and Blake Raley
52: Hanging in There Written Aug 9, 2011 12:03am Today I saw him smile for real! Something I know I have taken for granted in the past. It is extremely hard to see him feeling bad. He told me today, he wishes he could just get a shot in his tongue to numb it until this was all over with. He has absolutely no sense of taste anymore. Every once in awhile he attempts some ramen noodles or soup, but usually to no avail, we are depending on the feeding tube now. His weight is the one thing I think he feels like he has at least a little control. He doesn't like to disappoint the nutritionist, tells me he is going to start filling his pockets with change. Here we go with the stubborness. I posted one picture that he hates because it shows how much weight he has lost. I mainly posted it because I am trying to truly document what he is going through. His neck is starting to get blistered. He has some gel that he keeps on there, but it looks painful. You can see the place his radiation mask sits and where the radiation goes. He is in quite a bit of pain in the throat and neck, that makes him mumble when he talks a little. All in all, its tough, but I told him today...he is holding up really well. Good days and bad days. Strong ones and weak ones. He is doing it! He is getting by and overall, that is all that matters.
53: Financial stress definitely is a burden. It is probably the one thing that gets him down more than anything. The boys have helped him cope the most lately. I know that he wants to appear strong for them in every way, but reality is, he is sick. Sometimes you have to remind him of this reality. So...I haven't written in awhile, sorry for not keeping you guys updated. I am sure right now I am overwhelming you with information. Not going to lie, this is hard, but I still BELIEVE. /Kristi
55: September 8, 2011 8:50pm I am so sorry for the delay in updating. Eric is doing well. He is recovering as expected from the treatment, slowly but surely. His attitude has really carried him through it all and of course his belief that God will see him through. This has been a journey he will remember forever, however, he hopes to be able to put an end to the uphill climb really soon. He will not know any new information about the cancer or how well the treatment worked until close to the end of the year. Please continue to pray for complete recovery!!! He is hopeful, as we all are. Your continued support is overwhelming and has touched everyone that is part of his life. It is so very appreciated. He still has feeding tube and port and will probably keep both until he knows he is out of the treatment phase completely. He has lost a lot of weight. Started out at 212. Currently at 169 lbs. The last week of treatment definitely took a toll on him. He was not consistent on his feedings because he just couldn't handle much in his stomach at one time, but I have to tell you, he was tough. It was very emotional watching him pour something in a tube over and over again. Watching his face grimace at a mere swallow of water and most of all, just to see him so weak that he couldn't get out of bed. It was something I hope he never has to go through again. His neck is healing great! The burns are going away and his skin is gradually returning to normal. Ya know, he is a tough man. He has endured more than I ever dreamed he would have to endure. He faced it, and has managed to continue to stand tall. One day soon, I pray he will be able to say "I beat it!". Until then, he will continue to fight. No matter how humbling it might be. God is good! Kristi
56: Back to Work September 21, 2011 11:15pm Everyone please pray for Eric tomorrow as he goes back to work for the first time since his leave. I have been personally very opposed to the idea, but Eric adamantly informs me that this is what he needs to get back to normal. I finally get it. He has improved considerably over the last week and continues to improve with each passing day. He even was able to eat some soup the other day. I am nervous about him pushing his body too quickly, as is the doctor, but Eric is a fighter! Thank goodness for that. Just please pray also for the entire Trainer family. As Eric hopefully nears the end of his battle with Cancer, his dear Mom, Dru, is just beginning her second battle with this horrible disease. Dru started chemo today...again. She is such a special lady and I know this is especially difficult. So, as Eric continues to need your prayers, please add Druscilla and the entire Trainer family to your prayer list if you haven't already. I'll keep you posted! Kristi
58: Eric, I think of you and pray for you so often but have seldom to tell you so. Just minutes ago I was saying your name to the Lord and He heard my pleas on your behalf. Scripture tells us that He has our names on the palms of His hands--isn't that the most comforting thought?When he hears me ask for healing on your behalf, He sees your face and knows exactly what's going on. Eric, he LOVES us. We are told to expect suffering. To that we want to say "No thanks, I'll just take the eternal life part, the rewards of Heaven, but, if it's all the same to you, I'll just skip the suffering." I don't like this suffering part either but because He didn't for us, then we'll just have to show others how He can walk with us/carry us through our suffering.Joshua 1:9 says "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged for the Lord, your God will be with you wherever you go." I see photos of you with your laptop. Google the song "If You Want Me To" by Ginny Owens. Also, here are the words to a song called "Still" by HillSong (You can listen to it on YouTube) Hide me now Under your wings Cover me Within Your mighty hands When the oceans rise and thunders roar I will soar with You, above the storm Father, You are king over the flood I will be still and know You are God Find rest my soul, in Christ alone Know His power, in quietness and trust When the oceans rise and thunders roar I will soar with You, above the storm Father, You are king over the flood I will be still and know You are God .Love, Nancy Raulston | August 10, 2011 2:01am
59: August 14, 2011 3:18pm Eric,Keep fighting!! There are so many of us praying for you and who care so much for you. I know this is a tough battle but I also know that God is in control and will give you strength to get through this. Love you dear friend, Ronda Doe August 14, 2011 5:55pm Eric, I have been praying for you and will continue to everyday! I know you can beat this! Love you! Shanna Byrnes August 22, 2011 10:24am Last week! Hang in there! Jennifer Trainer August 26, 2011 9:14amNow its all about recovering and allowing God to completely heal your body. You are healed in Jesus Name we all believe it! Talk with you soon. We are still praying. With Love,Jeff, Dody, Hayden, and Blake September 7, 2011 2:06pm Hang in there Eric! Looking forward to hanging out with you and Blake at Journey! Keep your head up! Cindy Wienhold September 12, 2011 1:08pm I am so glad to hear that you are close to the end of these tough treatments. I am praying that God will totally heal you and that you will not have to endure anymore of them. Hang in there and take comfort in the fact that God is a great God and that you are loved. Ronda Doe September 22, 2011 7:07am Sounds great E. Keep it up my man. Hug that desk and take it one day at a time. If you feel you need to stop and rest, then do so. You can make up the hour later in the day. Hang in there. We are all pulling for you. Prayers for your mom as well. F' cancer.D Berube September 22, 2011 11:35am Eric, I have been praying for you. I am so glad this is almost over! I appreciate what Nancy has to you. She is, as your mom says, a true Prayer Warrior! You have so many people who love you and are praying for you. I am SO HAPPY that you are almost through with this! I will continue praying for you, and will pray for you, too, Dru! I'm so glad you are feeling well enough to get back to work. Go, Eric! Fight!!! Gina Teague November 6, 2011 9:28pm Eric,You continue to be in my prayers! If there is anything that I or Jeni can do, please let us know.Your friend,Steve Cobb November 7, 2011 8:39am Eric,I am so glad to hear the news that you are continuing to get stronger and that there aren't any new masses. I pray for you everyday and will pray this week that you can start eating and get rid of the feeding tube. Keep fighting, Eric. If anyone can beat this, you can!!! Love you dear friend, Ronda November 17, 2011 8:10am Yeah!!! That's great news, we aren't holding out on prayers though, keeping them coming, we love ya! See ya soon... :-). I know your excited, keep up your spirits. Dody Raley
61: Good news! Nov 6, 2011 8:50pm Erics latest appointments with the oncologist and ENT have been promising. He is doing well and the latest CT Scan came back with no new masses, just inflammation. He is still healing. His tongue and throat both give him a lot of trouble. He describes trying to take a few bites is just so labor intensive. It is just easier to put it in the tube an go to sleep. He said he really wants the feeding tube taken out so for the next week he is going to push himself to eat so they can take it out. His weight is currently at 171 lbs which means he has lost 34 lbs since the beginning of March. The goal for now is to try to push hard this week and just get solids or liquids down without the tube and hopefully he can lose it before long. He is very tired of it. He is getting stronger everyday, but with no fat to keep him warm, he chills easily. Pray for his strength this week to eat. He needs to eat solids not only for his weight, but also to exercise his jaw and digestive system. It is a slow recovery, but he is doing great! I will keep you posted if anything new happens or at least when the PET Scan is scheduled. That will be a huge day. Kristi
62: Removal of feeding tube Nov 17, 2011 7:41am They just took Eric back for surgery. The goal today is to remove the feeding tube and stretch the esophagus a bit. It has narrowed with treatment making it even more difficult to swallow. He is anxious for today. He has lost more than 40 lbs., but he hates feeding through the tube! This is a step in the right direction, him saying, "I can do this".Stay tuned for an update. He is in great spirits.
63: I am sure we will never forget the humming nurse! I remember this day like it was yesterday. Walking into the great big waiting room Smile on your face! Who knew surgery days could be so fun! ;-) | Nov 17, 2011 8:23am Eric is out of surgery and Dr. Murray said he did great. He said no stretching needed for now. The tissue looked pink and healthy, but still swollen. Trying to not jump to conclusions, but feel very positive. Another chapter closed. Great news! Hopefully this will make him feel a little normal again. Thanks for the support! Picture post-surgery!
64: November 17, 2011 8:36am So thankful all went well!!! God is so good! He is going to see you ALL the way through this, every step of the way. Love you, !Melissa Katterich November 17, 2011 1:16pm Eric,You are in our prayer's, and it looks like the power of prayer is definitely working. You are looking good. Stay in touch and keep us posted. Steve and Jeni Cobb November 17, 2011 7:16pm Great news Eric! So happy for such positive news today! You stay in my prayers each and every day and I am so proud you for your positive attitude and your fight each day against the pain. What a role model you are for those around you. I thank you for showing me what strength really is. Keep it up! God is great and he never lets us walk alone. Joni Rios November 18, 2011 2:26pm Woo Hoo!!! I am celebrating the answered prayers of many :) I know you are so excited to get rid of the feeding tube....and just in time for Thanksgiving :) I am hoping that you and your family have a wonderful Thanksgiving. I am continuing to pray that God will keep his healing hand on you and will continue to restore your strength. Ronda Doe November 19, 2011 11:16pm Great News E! If you do not have taste buds, start slamming greens and fruits with my VM. As many greens as you can with water and a little ice. Keep it up.D Berube November 20, 2011 7:45am We are proud of you, Eric!!!! We are praying that those taste buds and saliva glands will start working again and things will be much easier! Keep up the good work! We love you! !Melissa and Rick November 20, 2011 10:37am Eric,My prayers are still with you and your family. I am very glad to hear that you are making progress and I am sure it is a struggle daily to get back to life before your illness, just know you have a lot of friends out here and we are behind you my friend. I look forward to seeing you at one of the IHS get togethers when you are ready to join us. God bless and keep you, Steve and Jeni Cobb
65: Getting stronger each day Nov 19, 2011 10:30pm Eric is recovering so well. Praise God! Thanks for all the many prayers and please don't stop praying!! Each day he eats a little more and although he has lost a ton of weight he is pushing hard for normalcy. At this point, it is mind over matter. Eating is no longer for pleasure it is a requirement for living. He still has not regained his taste buds nor does his salivary glands work correctly so you can imagine how labor intensive eating solids can be. He is trying, hard. I'm very proud of you Eric and the way you have pushed your way through all of this. Be proud! The rest of us are! Kristi
67: Lowest weight: 156 lbs. Current weight: 167 lbs Below is the first "real" meal after the feeding tube was removed!
68: January 26, 2012 9:16pm Glad to know it looks that God's grace has won. Keep in touch my friend and God Bless. .Steve Cobb January 27, 2012 9:10am I'm so glad, thankful, and happy that Eric has had you to help him through this, and that he is now doing so much better. I hope he knows what a blessing you are to him! I'm sure he is very thankful for you. Gina Teague January 28, 2012 1:37pm I will continue to pray for you Eric everyday as I have since you encountered this journey, and we prayed for your mother and you in our BSF group the day she got the news about the fight you were about to encounter. I know she is rejoicing in heaven over your improvement and no signs of cancer. Keep eating for yourself and her as I continue to seek God's continued favor for you.Love in Christ, Brenda Jordan January 30, 2012 8:48pm We knew you would pull through this set back. God is good!! Glenn and Stephanie Hupfer | God is Good!
69: Courtney A. Noell, M.D. Ear, Nose and Throat Specialist Extracted tumor | Timothy F. Ragsdale, M.D. Ear, Nose and Throat Specialist Delivered the bad news of Cancer | Ajay K Dubey MD Radiation Oncologist, Radiologist Orchestrated all Radiation treatments | Mark D Murray, MD Gastroenterologist, Internist Performed Endoscopy and inserted and removed feeding tube. | Dr. Mrugesh P. Patel, MD Oncologist Organized all treatments and made the official diagnosis and prognosis.
70: Signing off Written Jan 26, 2012 6:50pm Well folks, what a journey it has been. The ups and downs were plentiful and the stress sometimes more than I could bear. I write this now to sum up MY journey as well as Eric's. To allow myself the closure, and the opportunity to be vulnerable and speak from the rawest place I know. My heart. I am so thankful to say that the latest word is that there is no evidence of cancer. I'm sure that the words "cancer free" will come soon, but until they do...this is enough. I pray this is the closest I come to experiencing the tragedy of this awful disease, but in so many ways~I'm grateful. Not for the pain or the suffering that Eric has faced, not for the fear that caused so many sleepless nights, but for the precious time I was allowed with Eric. The last nine months were a gift from God in so many ways. The unexpected time with Dru, Eric's Mom, spent at chemo. The opportunity to reflect on what life has offered to us all and what often times we take for granted. I know I had only allowed myself a few moments of reality to set in and then went into full blown..."I got this" mode. I pretended this was my fight, not because that would change things, but because I knew there would be at least one day during treatment that I would be the only one fighting. That day came and went and yet I kept my emotions all bottled up inside because I was supposed to be the strong one. I was reporting to the masses that faith
71: was abundant and I had no doubts he would recover. The truth is I couldn't imagine life without him so I would only allow those thoughts and words to seep out, but all the while I was a mess. I believe God allowed Eric and I's paths to cross for a reason. I felt I was meant to be there...I wasn't sure why at the time, but now I know. I recall those days that I felt so helpless. A few pills to ease his pain and a smile and a milkshake were all I could do. I know now that those days were just as much for me as they were him. I was privileged to be a small light allowed into his world during the days that he preferred to be in the dark. Eric, thank you for that. I am so happy to see you starting to shine all on your own. We made it through all | of this both much stronger and I owe that all to you. You were my "rock" in ways you will probably never understand. I will forever be grateful. I did nothing for you really. I take no credit for your recovery. It was all you. I hope you never have to go through it again. I have no doubt that whatever life gives you, you will win. You are a very strong man. You have the will to conquer anything. I will never forget what you have taught me over the years. From the bottom of my heart...I thank you. I will never, ever forget this incredible journey. You are loved. So with somewhat of a heavy heart and a close to my most inner thoughts...I thank everyone for the support and the wonderful expressions of faith and strength. God is good. Love, Kristi