FC: Finding God | by Kiernan Kelly
1: Finding GOD IN SUffering
2: The time I found God in suffering was my first day of high school here at prep. I was really freaked out because there were all the bigger kids and people who knew how to work and live in this environment. Everyone was dressed all nice and I was standing their at my locker in my jeans and tee shirt and sneakers. I was feeling really crushed because I knew this year I would have to work harder to maintain good grades. I was really worried about high school because from the moment that I wrote my name in first period that first day I realized that everything I do academically from this day on for the next four years affects my whole life in the long run. About halfway through the first week of school I felt a little calmer and more at home with my surroundings. I realized this year might not be so bad and I might actually make it to college in the long run. I had all my friends with me and my classes were actually not as hard as I was expecting. I was still freaked out a little bit but going to mass every week helped a lot. I also discovered that talking to my counselor helped when I had trouble with classes and grades. This is the time when I felt like I most had a suffering connection with God. My suffering was more emotional and mental unlike Gods physical pain.
3: And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ,after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong,firm, and steadfast 1 Peter 5:10 I think this bible quote means that through your suffering God will restore your strength after you have been humbled. The whole point of the experience is so that God can show you what his son went through. A time when I think that this quote applied to my life was when I had to first babysit my little brother and sister. I felt like I was being humbled when I had to help them through everything and babysit for hours. Because of me having to babysit them I have become a stronger and more steadfast sister.
4: Connection with God through Prayer
5: The Retreat of a Lifetime I really found God during my 8th grade graduation retreat when my graduating class and I went to a little lodge area out in the woods. We were all able to meditate and reflect upon our past school years for the whole day. At one point we were reading prayers and having some silent time to meditate and I felt really connected to God. It was a really cold and windy day and the lodge we were in had no heating because it was only used for small events during the spring and summer. It was storming outside and the cold cement floor was hard to lay on for the extended period of time. Our teacher had just read a prayer and we were all trying to sit through wind on the cold floor trying to relax and think about the prayer. I was finally able to position myself comfortably on my stomach and close me eyes and block out the storm a little bit. Everyone was quiet and you could hear every breath that people took under the Christian Cd our teacher was playing. It felt really special being with all 50 of my classmates and being able to share this moment with all of them and God. Those few moments were honestly the coolest religious experiences I have ever felt in my life and I will not soon forget them.
6: Matthew 6:7 But when ye pray, use not vain repetitions, as thee heathen do: for they think they will be heard for their much speaking. I think this verse means that when you pray you must do so with good and heartfelt intentions. God can see through whatever lie or scam you try to put up and lying about your prayers, whether for yourself or other people, is never the thing to do. You always have to tell God your sins and not sugar coat anything because in the end he knows all. I believe I relate to this verse because sometimes I feel like I try to hide things from God or I don't give him the whole truth. For all the words I say most of it is just a bunch of babble thats there to cover up all the misgivings that I don't want God to see.