S: Peter Benedict Shock
BC: In honor of Peter Benedict Shock November 12, 2011 - August 16, 2012
FC: Peter Benedict Shock
2: PETER'S STORY begins in November of 2011. I was pregnant for two weeks before I realized it. When I took the test, I was surprised and elated! We were going to be a family of 5 come summertime! How exciting! | In January, just after Christmas, Julie, Natalie, and I went to Ohio with mom for a visit. I was entering the second trimester, starting to show, and the nausea that plagued me for all of December was starting to wane. The four of us traveled back to Maryland the day before mom's birthday. She decided to stay until February, when my first ultrasound and midwife appointments were scheduled. That was just the first of many ways I would bee God's hand acting in my life over the coming months. On February 8, 2012, we got the news that forever changed our lives. Steve and I went to our appointment at The Center for Maternal and Fetal Medicine for an ultrasound to see if the baby we were expecting was healthy. But we learned that we would not get to raise our much anticipated baby.
3: In mid-March, we learned that we were expecting a baby boy, who we quickly decided to name Peter Benedict. | June 26, 2012 34 weeks pregnant | Our Son
4: During the days after diagnosis I didn't know how I would ever find joy again. But I leaned on the Lord and I leaned on my husband. We both found that even in the midst of this tragedy, we loved our son dearly, and we would enjoy any time we were giving with him. | Can a woman forget her infant, be without tenderness for the child of her womb? Isaiah 49:15
5: Each new life, no matter how brief, forever changes the world.
6: Peter's first Easter | 24 weeks | 26 weeks | 29 weeks | Certainly sons are a gift from the LORD, the fruit of the womb, a reward. Psalm 127
7: Peter's first swim 36 weeks | Graciously rescue me, God. Come quickly to help me, Lord. May all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you. May those who long for your help always say, "God be glorified!'" Here I am, afflicted and poor. God, come quickly! You are my help and my deliverer. Lord, do not delay! Psalm 70 | While I loved being pregnant and cherished every day Peter remained with us, at the same time we were grieving. It was strange to grieve a life that was still here with us. In my hardest moments I turned to the Psalms. Increasingly I found myself wishing the pregnancy would slow down. It was going so fast, that fateful day when we would say goodbye growing closer and closer | At dawn let me hear of your kindness, for in You I trust. Show me the path I should walk, for in You I trust my life.. Rescue me, Lord, from my foes, for in you I hope. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God. May your kind spirit guide me on ground that is level. Psalm 143.
8: Labor begins | We arrived at the hospital at 1:00am on August 16. Labor was slow, but not stressful. I got some rest as morning came, enjoyed my last hours with Peter in my womb, prayed he would stay with us for a while, and slowly labored into the evening.
9: Mom came to the hospital with the girls mid-morning, since we weren't expecting labor to last as long as it did. | Waiting to meet you | A person's a person no matter how small. Dr. Seuss
10: After about 24 hours of labor (my shortest so far!) Peter made his entrance into the world, feet first! I'm so grateful for Nicki, our kind and skilled midwife. | Push! | When Peter started to emerge, I reached down and touched his tiny toes as they came out. I smiled, for they were sweet, tiny toes, and Peter was almost here! But then I cried, for Peter was almost here. It was so exciting, but at the same time, sad, as I knew hello would eventually lead to goodbye. I was a moment so full of emotion.
11: And then you arrived! It was amazing, emotional, wondrous, and a little scary. We didn't know how long you'd be here with us, and at first we thought we might only get minutes. | A day to remember
12: August 16, 2012 | 5:27 pm | 15 inches | 3 lbs, 15 oz
13: Peter was baptized right at birth, thanks to the kind and prompt priest from St. Mary's in Annapolis, Fr. John Harrison. We are grateful that Peter received a Catholic baptism. It was a beautiful moment. | We asked God for a baby. Instead he gave us a saint.
14: We cherished every moment with Peter. He was snuggled and held during all his time on earth.
16: Happy birthday, sweet boy. Your birthday will always be remembered as one of the most amazing days of my life. You blessed my life beyond measure. You changed our family for the better. I will carry you in my heart for the rest of my life, until we meet again. | So little, so loved
18: Peter lived for a glorious 3 1/2 hours, passing around 9:05pm. He came home with us, where we were able to get lots of hand and foot prints, gaze at his precious hands and face, and get lots of snuggle time. before taking him to the funeral home the following afternoon, Friday, August 17.
21: Do not let your hearts be troubled. You have faith in God; have faith also in me. John 14:1
22: The moment may be temporary,
23: Your tiny footprints are forever embedded in our hearts | but the memory is forever.
24: I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always. As long as I'm living my baby you'll be.
26: Faithful friends are a sturdy shelter; whoever finds one finds a treasure. Sirach 6
27: The group of women in my online group were instrumental in my journey. They were so supportive and understanding. So many of them were praying for us, many of their husbands specifically took it upon themselves to pray for Steve, and many of their children prayed for the girls. They made me a beautiful pryer quilt, sent cards, gifts, flowers, and a beautiful St. Peter statue. They were an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on. When Peter was born, I opened Facebook to post a picture of Peter and saw that many of the women had changed their profile and cover photos to sunflowers in honor of Peter and in support of our family. I started to cry. I'm so blessed to have them in my life.
28: Lord of all hopefulness, Lord of all joy, Whose trust, ever childlike, no cares can destroy, Be there at our waking, and give us, we pray, Your bliss in our hearts, Lord, at the break of the day. Lord of all eagerness, Lord of all faith, Whose strong hands were skilled at the plane and the lathe, Be there at our labors, and give us, we pray, Your strength in our hearts, Lord at the noon of the day. Lord of all kindliness, Lord of all grace, Your hands swift to welcome, your arms to embrace, Be there at our homing, and give us, we pray, Your love in our hearts, Lord, at the eve of the day. Lord of all gentleness, Lord of all calm, Whose voice is contentment, whose presence is balm, Be there at our sleeping, and give us, we pray, Your peace in our hearts, Lord, at the end of the day.
29: Peter's Funeral Music Holy God We Praise Thy Name Shepard Me Oh God I Heard The Voice Of Jesus Say Ave Maria Lord Of All Hopefulness Christ Be Our Light
30: How I love your adorable little lips! | You formed my inmost being; you knit me in my mother's womb. I praise you, so wonderfully you made me; wonderful are your works! My very self you knew. Psalm 139 If you loved me, you would rejoice that I am going to the Father; for the Father is greater than I. And now I have told you this before it happens, so that when it happens you may believe. John 14
31: I say to you, you will weep and mourn...You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. So you are also now in anguish. But I will see you again, and your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take your joy away from you. John 16 | Saying goodbye when we dropped your body off at the funeral home was one of the hardest moments in all of our lives. So, too, were the moments when we visited with you before the funeral. Leaving your body there, knowing it was the last time I would hold you and touch you was difficult beyond words. But God willing I will be with you again in heaven. And until then I can rejoice that you are with the Father!
32: A Beautiful Love | Adoring Big Sister
34: Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 | Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. Matthew 5:4
35: It's the moments I spent with you that build the memories which last a lifetime.
37: Behold, I make all things new. Revelations 21 | We are so grateful to have gotten to know you, Peter. While we may miss you and be heartbroken at times, we have the joy of knowing a true saint, and delivering him to the Lord. What an honor and a privilege. You've affected lives already in just the short time you were here, and I believe you will continue to change lives from Heaven!
38: We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
40: You Are Loved
41: Peter's Funeral Mass Readings Isaiah 43: 1-7 Romans 14: 7-12 John 14: 1-6 | But now, thus says the LORD, who created you, Jacob, and formed you, Israel: Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name: you are mine. When you pass through waters, I will be with you; through rivers, you shall not be swept away. When you walk through fire, you shall not be burned, nor will flames consume you. For I, the LORD, am your God, the Holy One of Israel, your savior. I give Egypt as ransom for you, Ethiopia and Seba in exchange for you. Because you are precious in my eyes and honored, and I love you, I give people in return for you and nations in exchange for your life.a Fear not, for I am with you; from the east I will bring back your offspring, from the west I will gather you. | None of us lives for oneself, and no one dies for oneself. For if we live, we live for the Lord, and if we die, we die for the Lord; so then, whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s. For this is why Christ died and came to life, that he might be Lord of both the dead and the living. Why then do you judge your brother? Or you, why do you look down on your brother? For we shall all stand before the judgment seat of God; for it is written: As I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bend before me, and every tongue shall give praise to God. So then each of us shall give an account of himself to God. | "Do not let your hearts be troubled. You have faith in God; have faith also in me.. In my Father’s house there are many dwelling places. If there were not, would I have told you that I am going to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back again and take you to myself, so that where I am you also may be. Where I am going you know the way." Thomas said to him, "Master, we do not know where you are going; how can we know the way?” Jesus said to him, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." | The celebration of Peter's life took place at St. Ursula parish on August 20, 2012 at 9:30 am., with celebrant Fr. Steve Hook. Carol Maglov was the lector; Eric Blair was the cantor. It was an incredibly beautiful Mass.
42: Christ, be our light! Shine in our hearts. Shine through the darkness. Christ, be our light! Shine in your church gathered today. Longing for light, we wait in darkness. Longing for truth, we turn to you. Make us your own, your holy people, light for the world to see. Longing for peace, our world is troubled. Longing for hope, many despair. Your word alone has pow’r to save us. Make us your living voice. Longing for food, many are hungry. Longing for water, many still thirst. Make us your bread, broken for others, shared until all are fed. Longing for shelter, many are homeless. Longing for warmth, many are cold. Make us your building, sheltering others, walls made of living stone. Many the gifts, many the people, many the hearts that yearn to belong. Let us be servants to one another, making your kingdom come. | For you created my inmost being; you knit me in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in that secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalm 139: 13-16
43: Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things,, endures all things. Love never ends. 1 Corinthians 13:7
46: Julie loved her little brother so much. She wanted to hold him as much as possible, and treasured her time with him.
47: FAMILIES ARE FOREVER
52: But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31 | You have turned my mourning into dancing. You have taken off my sackcloth and clothed me in joy. Psalm 30:11