S: Am I Mary Anne Bell ?
BC: "When I'm out there at night, I feel close to my own body, I can feel my blood moving, my skin and my fingernails, everything, it's like I'm full of electricity and I'm glowing in the dark--I'm on fire almost--I'm burning away to nothing--but it doesn't matter because I know exactly where I am." Chapter 9, pg. 111 | "You just don't know," she said. "You hide in this little fortress, behind wire and sandbags, and you don't know Sometimes I want to eat this place.  That's how I feel. It's like this appetite. I get scared sometimes – lots of times – but it's not bad. You know? I feel close to myself. When I'm out at night, I feel close to my own body, I can feel my blood moving, my skin and fingernails, everything, it's like I'm full of electricity and I'm glowing in the dark – I'm on fire almost – I'm burning away into nothing – but it doesn't matter because I know exactly who I am. You can't feel like that anywhere else." (Sweetheart of the Song Tra Bong.150)
FC: The Things They Carried | Am I Mary Anne Bell ? | By: Andrica Sanguinette
1: 2. I constantly see this group going around they state that they are the green berets but what they do looks terrifying. | 3. Mark is the best he is teaching me lots of things. I see big guns and i am afraid to touch them. | 1. It is my first day in this strange land I feel so uncomfortable but with my love Mark Fosse here i feel safe. | 2
2: 2. People tell me i'm wrong for going out hunting but i dont care. | 3. I hate this place it taunts and haunts me in my dreams. | 1. I've changed and i am proud of that i feel more like my self.
3: 1. I love my Mark. He has shown me how his life is day in and out. | 2. Mark has taught me so much he has shown the hard work in the army . | 3. The army is so much work day in and out they have to risk their lives, but this interests me sadly.
4: 2. The gun seems more like a friend than an enemy more like an attached arm. | 3. I have a feeling like i am hungry and the i only thing that can satisfy this hunger is war. | 1. My life feels so much better i feel like a monster waiting for its turn to be released.
5: 1. I feel a change occurring i recently cut off my hair and i have become friends with some of the green berets cultures. | 3. I feel like i am being torn i really have to consider what i am doing. | 2. Mark has chosen to marry me i have embarrassed him and he still loves me i think i am good i feel more in love with him than before.
6: 2. People don't understand i choose to do what i do for a reason it defines me because i am me. | 3. I choose to do things my way and eventually this land will cease to taunt me. | 1. People assume that i am confused in what i want to do with my life but i'm not.
7: 1. I have a confession to make i am not my self any more last night i went on an ambush and i felt alive. | 3. I feel like although this life style is comfortable my love mark is one who i never forget looking at me with that look of regret but i love this more. | 2. i feel lee is n turning back like my life has found meaning and i have been completed.
8: 1. Okay i wear tongues around my neck so does it matter like i wear what i want when i want to. | 3. When people say i have no idea what i actually want they are wrong i went out on an ambush for three weeks and the first thing i did was check in with the berets not my fiancé. | 2. what i do and don't do define me and what i now stand for.
9: Okay i am done done with pretending to be what i am not i am Mary Mary Anne Bell is dead and i have risen in her place. I am the one who chooses to live in the forest i have been called for war and i prefer to fight and kill for my beliefs.
10: My mask is off and i am officially real. my life is now o disappear people don't understand what i am about any more not even the green berets or the man i love i am on my own and i chose to stay that way.
11: "I swear to God, man, she's got on culottes. White culottes and this sexy pink sweater. There she is." (6) | "Mary Anne made you think about those girls back home, how clean and innocent they all are, how they'll never understand any of this, not in a billion years." (Sweetheart of the Song Tra Bong.173) | [Mary Anne] had crossed to the other side. She was part of the land. She was wearing her culottes, her pink sweater, and a necklace of human tongues. She was dangerous. She was ready for the kill. (Sweetheart of the Song Tra Bong.184)