BC: I want to dedicate this mix book to my wonderful and loving Mother. ~Samantha Begines
FC: Madison Eris Begines and My Many Pieces of Writing | "I want to freefall into the unknown and forget about the pressure to be perfect." Madison Begines
1: Table of Contents : My Life Biography~Biography The Outsiders~Essay As Black as My Tears- Paragraph Bronze~Poem Missing You~Poem Inside she~Poem Dear So-So~Letter Moments Lost~Poem Dear So-So~Letter Can`t See Me~Poem
2: My Life Biography Hello my name is Madison Begines, but my friends like to call me Madi. I was born on Thursday October 23, 1997 at 8:14 a.m. I grew upi in California with the high temperatures, beautiful beaches, and the gangs. My parents had decided that we were moving to Colorado. I hadn`t found out until a year before we had to move. They felt that it was the best for us and it was the right move for are family. Now I live here in a place that maybe 5 months out of the year it`s a decent day. Usually it`s a cold, stormy or snowy day. I really didn`t want to come here. In the long run I made some amazing friends.... the soccer teams are better and Iv`e got a better education than what I would have had. A journey of a thousand miles begins with one foot step. This is just a recap of my life biography....(so far). I have many adventures to come and they will not be easy all I have to do is keep on moving and striding and achieving my dreams.
3: FAMILY! | "Dad kept us out of school, but school comes and goes. Family is forever." ~Buddha
4: Johnny's the Outsiders Johnny Cade is a little lost in the world because he gets jumped a lot by the Socs. He is an emotional wreck, but without his friends Johnny wouldn't be in this world today. He is a greaser facing many hard times with his both his parents and the greasers. One of his problems starts at home with his parents. His parents beat him all the time. Johnny's parents fight, but when Johnny gets home they beat him for no reason. Sleeping on the streets and sleeping at Pony`s house helps him get away from them. Johnny and Pony are best friends. They went to the movies. After the movie they got jumped. They only got jumped because they were hitting on their girlfriends. Johnny was lying on the ground because he was being kicked senseless. While the other Socs drowning Ponyboy in a fountain nearby. They left Johnny on the floor and went to help drown Ponyboy. Johnny got up and killed one of the Socs, Bob. When he killed Bob they ran away with the clothes on their back, a $20 bill and a gun from Darry. They ran away to an old abandoned church at the top of a hill in a nearby town. They stayed there until Dallas came to get them. After they talked about what had been going around in the paper and stuff they went to go eat at Dairy Queen. Johnny and Pony stuffed their faces until there were stuffed.
5: While driving home the spotted a church that was on fire. A bunch of children still trapped inside. Driving up Johnny and Pony jumped out to go save the kids trapped inside. They saved all the kids and were out safely. Sadly though Johnny was injured badly. Johnny had realized that sixteen years just isn't long enough. Dallas and Pony told Johnny that they would go the rumble and win it for him. Ponyboy had given Johnny a book. They went to the rumble and beat the Socs into the ground. After the rumble they went to see Johnny. He wasn't looking to well. Before Johnny Cade passed away he gave Pony the book back and told him to stay gold. "Stay gold Pony stay gold." What he meant by stay gold was when you are a kid everything is new, exciting, gold. The way Pony digs sunsets is gold. Johnny Cade was a very confused sixteen year old boy who needed to learn who he really was. Being a greaser and being with Ponyboy was a lot to him even though it didn't seem like it. Now Johnny is gone, and life still goes on without him. I think that whenever Pony looks at the sunset is looking down at him smiling goodnight. The End!
6: As Black as My Tears It was just that one phone call. I hadent even seen it coming. He was a beautiful striking looking cat. I cried until my emotions died. The wind was howling at me that day. It was possible that my mood matched the weather. She (mom) was alone. Sitting in the vets office alone with the cat meowing to end his sad and pointless life. I can just imagine the pain he was in. I mean not eating for weeks at a time. Noah wasn`t eating his dry food. Never had he ate wet food. All of a sudden........ 4...5...6 cans of wet food a day. This isn`t what it was meant to be. 6 years old for a cat is not enough. Maybe a good 6 more years would have been nice. I just keep that same photo up in my bedroom. Every once and a while its like I can feel his presents, but in the end it`s my imagination. Surrounding it with XOXO`s HUGS AND KISSES HUGS AND KISSES.
7: "Artists like cats; soldiers like dogs." ~Desmond Morris
8: Bronze is the color of winning It`s the color of joy The color of sleep Bronze is the color of heaven It`s the color of peace The color of smiles Bronze is the color of bunnies It`s the color of flowers The color of love Bronze is the color of angels It`s the color of kitties The color of family Bronze is the color of imagination It`s the color of dreams The color of hope ~Bronze
9: Cant See Me There ready for combat Fierce and stealthy Taking on the world Fighting the pines Behind enemy lines Hiding within the bushes Just as a cheetah would stalk antelope waiting to kill They attack Battling with all there might The pines sharp as knifes It pierces them As they think "I`m never giving up" Taking all sources of energy away At last (victory) They stand over there prey knowingly they won
10: Inside She Inside me is a girl of grief Inside is shattered glass Inside she is a nightmare I feel alone, sad, mad Black, white, gray A girl that just needs her feelings to explode like the fourth of July A monster awaiting to kill Broken heart beaten and bruised so many times it`s unbearable Mostly I would like nothing more than for you to love me
11: Dear So-So, I love you so much it`s unexplainable. It`s so hard to tell you in person. I am a sad, sorry, and, stupid person. You`re the best thing that has ever happened to me. How you smile funny, how you laugh when you fart or laugh at a fart joke. I`ve been wrong about you many times before. Take your life to new places, new heights, explore new things........... make something happen because it`s not going to come to you like a gift or a present. You earn it and until the darkest day, the dullest knife, and the deepest thought. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12: "A womens greatest asset is her beauty." ~Alex Comfort " | Moments Lost We miss him One wakes up 20 feet below How can you make me cry I want you to die I loved him He told jokes Gave me piggy back rides Played PS3 How I want him to explode Lying about marriage, family, friends Lost moments in the rain BOOM BANG POW | When I see him I want to kill him like it`s World War III In the 9th grade it went down hill Loved Lost Lied Failed That Beautiful thing we once had is over Like a ghost that name haunts me everyday of my life Moments Lost
13: Dear, So-So I have got some things to say. You made one of the biggest impacts on my life so far. There’s a little crack in my heart you caused. It keeps braking and breaking and breaking little by little. And because of your crazy antics with everything I don`t even think I know you anymore. I still love you it`s hard not to. Every time I see you I hug you and never want to let go, but whenever someone talks about you I get mad and so furious. I want to punch you. I can’t though. I love you with all my heart. Right now I don’t know what to think. ~Sincerely Madison
14: Missing You Wow Who would have thought It`s beautiful One missing part though You Looking at you I can see it in your eyes This is how it was supposed to be Wasn`t it Don`t Care Don`t need Me To humid to cry Just one question How can I fix this mistake Wait you are ignoring me You just can`t care
15: Age wrinkles the body. Quiting wrinkles the soul. ~Douglas McArthur | A yawn is a silent shout. ~G.K. Chestertan
16: "Writing becomes beautiful when it becomes specific."
17: I really hope that you liked this mixbook. I did my best and also I hope you liked the pieces of writing I picked out.