BC: So I guess this is the end of our story. | If you find this, then maybe some of your questions will be answered about "the death of Hannah Baker" | Well, I just mailed the tapes so I guess it's time for me to go. Enjoy life, and I hope that all of you look at your own story a little more in depth after this. | "Thank you."
FC: Hannah Baker's Scrapbook | That's me, Hannah Baker. This is the scrapbook describing my life for the past two years..
1: It started when I moved here. New house, new school, and new friends. | I was scared to have to start over completely making new friends, but sometimes new beginnings are a good thing.. Sometimes. | The new school was so much bigger. There were so many more classes.... | "I didn't want to be completely alone on the first day of school"
2: My guidance counselor called me a week before school started. She told me to meet her at school for a student orientation, but she didn't tell me what she was actually trying to do.. | The day I met Jessica. | "It's okay. I just thought you should know my name if we're going to be such fabulous friends." | "But the other girl was Jessica Davis, and she didn't want to be there any more than I did." | "If she had told me the real purpose of our get-together was to introduce me to another new student, I wouldn't have gone."
3: We went to Monet's Garden Café for the first time that day. | While we were there, we met a boy named Alex Standall who was also new to the area. | Jessica and I ended up talking for the rest of the day. We walked home with each other. | "That afternoon was a relief for all three of us. Now I wasn't afraid for the first day of school."
4: The school year started and there was a boy. His name was Justin Foley, I started to really like him. | We talked on the phone and in the hallways all the time. | I wanted him to be my first kiss. I planned it out perfectly. | "I was going to kiss him. That's the story-the whole story- right there."
5: But people wanted to believe that something else happened. Something more than just a kiss.. | I had dreams about how it was going to happen. We were going to be at the neighborhood park. | I slid off of the rocket ship slide and he caught me in his arms and kissed me. | "We kissed, and that's it. Nothing else, just a kiss."
6: You remember Alex, right? Well he came back up... This time not in a friendly way. | Alex made a hot/not list and I was on it.; the hot side to be exact. That doesn't sound like a bad thing, but it was.... | After the list came out, people thought it was okay to touch me and look at me differently. | "The list made me feel worthless."
7: On the list, I was at the top of the hot side, but another familiar name was at the top of the not side. It was Jessica. | She and Alex had just broken up and she was furious when she saw my name at the top of the list. | One day at Monet's she confronted me about it. She wouldn't believe me that I didn't ever try to get with Alex. That day she punched me in the face. | "She rose up beside her chair-glaring at me- and swung."
8: The next thing that happens is something you think only happens in movies. Have you ever heard of a Peeping Tom?... | There was a boy named Tyler Down. He started looking through my bedroom window without me knowing. | I knew he was looking at me, how did he think I was so oblivious? It was scary knowing he was watching. | "What if she.... What if I... found out? Guess what, Tyler Down? I found out."
9: She came to my house one night and we knew that Tyler was watching us. | A girl named Courtney Crimson told me she could help me catch him in the act. | I could tell Courtney was just using me to keep up her reputation of being nice to everyone but I wanted to give her another chance.
10: Valentine's Day was coming up and our school was doing a survey to try and match up kids together. | I took the test and got matched up with a boy named Marcus. | He asked me on a date to Rosie's but then was 30 minutes late claiming to think that our date was a joke.. | "Apparently he thought we were joking about the date."
11: There was another boy from our school at Rosie's His name was Zach and he saw that I was sad so he tried to hit on me. | When I rejected him he got angry and left. Later on that week in class we were writing happy notes to everyone in the class and he stole mine making me think that no one wrote any to me. | At that point I had begun to consider suicide. The happy notes could have made me re-think what I was going to do., but Zach ruined it.. | "The next day my bag was empty. I knew something was up.."
12: There was one boy that I wished I got to know better. His name was Clay Jenson. | I worked with him at the local movie theater over the summer and always thought he was so sweet. | One night at a party, we kissed. I wish I could've gone out with him, but by then I had already decided to commit suicide. | "I could start over with him if I wanted to. But where would I start?"
13: The last time I went to his office, I told him that I wanted my life to end. We talked about it, but he wasn't giving me answers. He let me walk out that day. That pushed me over the edge. | My guidance counselor's name was Mr. Porter. He was a very nice man and tried to understand me, but it still wasn't helping. | I was taking one last shot at saving my own life by going to the guidance counselor. | "He's letting me go. His door isn't opening, and he's not trying to save me."
14: I was planning on sending the tapes to every person who's name I brought up and hope that they all would know what I went through. | I made 13 tapes explaining each reason why I was going to do this to myself. | I planned it all out perfectly how I was going to kill myself and how I was going to leave my mark. | "I had been planning for this.."
15: I also decided that I'm going to take pills to die. It's the easiest way to do it. | I wished I could see the kids at school when they heard about my death. I wanted to know their reaction. | I didn't have anything else to live for, so I just gave up. I went from such a normal girl to someone I never knew I could be. | "I would love to know who will show up to my funeral. Who would take time out of their day for me."